Tuesday, May 30, 2006

wearing hats...

the tmt trippers met up for a short yet laugh-filled dinner... great! I quite enjoyed it. it's been half a yr since we got tog as a team to go help Ps EngKiat in Singburi... made some thai frens and am still in contact with them
here's my dilemma...should i continue doing thai2 when my thai1 is only a B-.
should i do malay already...?

tmb about the imf and wb group thingy... i am no longer involved as a bus host...instead..
(an excerpt from the email..)

"MOE has informed us that NUS students will now act as Helpdesk Officers - to answer enquiries pertaining to accommodation and transportation - instead of Bus Hosts. MOE felt that this is a more appropriate role for NUS students since there will be more interaction with the delegates"

dear colin
dear gordan and family
dear hweelee and juan are leaving spore....for studies, work and fun respectively

MISS you all

I had one of the most apprehensive and feared encounters recently. I did not know why I reacted in that manner...I am a fish outta water. In any case, i am good now...

am applying for teaching assistant position for the 1st 2 weeks of june but one out of the ten days, i will have to attend the training session for the sept imf/wbg events.
am involved in a FDR for clown musical on 1st july...which clashes with "paint a home" project which i signed up with my frens...
am going for church camp and then nvac camp...leaving my tutee with no replacement...will i be fired?...

i'm eagerly waiting for the module information to be uploaded.
i'm eagerly waiting to know what the surprise for the church camp is.

Sunday, May 28, 2006

packed siah

one packed weekend...

but i'm blessed to be part of what had happened...
WEDDING!!!
SINGING!!!
FOOD!!!
REHEARSAL!!!
BIRTHDAY!!!
YA ROOM!!!

will tell u all in details when the time allows.

lastly, the faithfulness and wonder of God has been poured upon me *HALLELUJAH!*
my CAP improved... ooooooooo. exciting siah. I'm thankful... Jesus's just nv fail!
this way, my parents are assured that their son is managing time alright between friends, church, activities and SCHOOL!
ARHH, that's impt... to reassure them that GOD IS IN CONTROL...*cheyyyyybah!*

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

.... therefore must spend even more time in solitude with God...

(read the previous post)

Monday, May 22, 2006

开始忙了

More of You and Less of me
开始忙了。。。
在我预想不到的时候。。。

有个要好的朋友说我戴太多的帽子了

我应该积极地赚钱吗?

开始忙了。。。

Friday, May 19, 2006

family and war

after the madness of having to catch episodes after episodes of non-stop action...
i've finished the serial..
disappointing ending... too abrupt to my liking.

today, everyone's at home. sis made breakfast. and the both of us helped in preparing lunch... hafen done such activity as a family for long time.. i had to peel lotsa small onions man...

would u defend ur country in times of crisis?
why?
if i were to defend my country, would it be due to e oath I swore and the allegiance which i made in 2003 and 2004? it could be due to the fact that my loved ones - family and frens, are here therefore i am protecting and defending.
What would i do if my family has left for a safe place...would i still stay and fight? if so...the reason for me to defend this soil would not primarily be pple or relationship..but the sense of ownership towards my home called spore...
but what did we,The post-65ers do to own this piece of land?
What do the oath that is merely strings of words mean when we struggle whether to run or to fight?

there's a saying in chinese
'country before home'

without a country, one cannot set up one's family.
but since a country is a construct; a construct of the people...and/or resources...and that family is a mobile unit...isn't it convenient to move with our family?

i know frens who will leave as soon as danger lurks...i know frens who will not.

then again, i think a physical war is less likely to occur in spore..

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

youthful days

I have been chasing K drama every night ...and almost every day too...
first time in my life that i actually chase a serial drama so tightly...
this drama, u either, like it or dislike it...
twists and turns; good and evil
deals with bitterness and forgiveness...

after this, i need to spend my 'youthful' day wisely ler...

got news that nvac camp got pushed back...i'm being engaged...I'm so important thus needed meh?
hee

Sunday, May 14, 2006

queen's day

today's is mothers' day.
no more 'traditional' sharkfin treat at thai sharkfin restaurant
so my sister and i cooked up a sumptuous dinner for my parents...

i'm proud of my sister. and thankful that she decided to cook (and i helped...) and I washed up (and she helped).

dun drool.
veg, prawns, char siew, soup,desert, fruits At the end of the day, the Queen @ home must feel satisfied! and here she is. Happy Mothers' Day!!! Love you!

Saturday, May 13, 2006

motto

诚 信 勇 忠
honesty trustworthiness courage* loyalty

* courage to stand up for what is right.

there are some readers who know the source of the above.
When i recalled these 4 words, i asked myself if it is applicable if one is to be successful in this society. How are these 4 values so to speak relevant. eg. if one wants to better one's status in the working environment, are the 4 values considered stumbling blocks or are they helpful?
Is it tough if one would be adhere to the 4 values?
what's ur take? what do u think about my sec sch's motto

A fren of mine asked me whether or not i am applying for internship.
Nv did it occur to me that internship is helpful...although my frens from med fac, science fac always try to find internship lobangs.
IS internship useful?

One of my precious moments would be to spend time with PRIMARY school classmates over gatherings/makans...some of those are those i've known 15yrs ago...how amazing it is to just see how each have changed, for better or for worse, since we parted ways in 1996.
I met 2 of them yday for dinner. We are sure that in the next 8 yrs, there will be drastic changes made to our lives...and till then, if we were still to be in contact, it'll be one of those rare life experiences...

Thursday, May 11, 2006

wowbow holiday

I have been going out everyday (mon- kbox!!!, tues- nus, dinner with ?aacaans, yday- minds with ad and dan then gordon's place).
falling sick with flu symptoms and sore throat. sigh ... yet there's bbq to attend this fri.. i will be the chef then.. set the fire and cook for them.

I looked for the invigilator who confiscated my paper during exam. made clarications and spoke. told him my suggestions on what appropriate actions and advice he ought to make prior exams to prevent any similar case from happening again.

I decided to drop the case.

Also, he mentioned to me about 'transaction'- the way i bahave and communicate. that conversation struck me.
I do realise i move my hands and body alot while talking, esp to superior and those olders- maybe that's how to release my tension?!!?
He felt that due to my physique, and with such mannerism and body language, there will be times when listeners/audiences do not treat me as seriously. And as i hard as i am conveying a serious pt of view or case, i cannot convince or attract them.
He felt that i was inflexible and i slide from the adult-adult transaction to adolescent-adult or child-adult transaction.

moving on

i hadn't felt that i had been part of a class... or just lacking 'class spirit' for a long time...4-7 in JC was a lil less than a flop. but off course, there were some who were really fantastic. Then now in NUS, students of 3 thai lang teachers treated us students to dinner at lemongrass at heeren. They treated us to a 5 course dinner and paid for all 30 of us... very touched. after that, about 11 of us went spinelli for coffee... took pictures, made jokes, shared ideas, chill... i love my ?aacaans. initially i was the ONLY guy from my class who came. then another one arrived. the rest of the class...sigh..didn't make it.
thank goodness, i am in good terms with the others from the other speaking and writing classes.


yday at gordan's place...i miss them v much. but as they had put it, they needed sabbatical and we needed to get out of our comfort and stand on our feet.
I feel this is necessary. At the same time, I thank them from the bottom of my heart that they are so kind towards us. Praise God for them being God-following and God-fearing.

I just need to know to i am not i/c of every fathermothersons lives..
I need to pray before i give advices to those who see me up and approach me for help..
I need to live a life that is right and holy to God
I need to be myself ...

thank you MA!

Friday, May 05, 2006

LIBERATION


"I will not sleep" I told myself when i got home at 4.15am this morning. There are so many things waiting for me to do... and i can't wait to have them done...
3 months of break! No more mon-fri travelling to school; No more having to endure lectures conducted by unanimated, unmotivated lecturers (a few of them)...then again, this shows the world's imperfect.

OK!! My first academic yr in NUS is drawing to a close, only to have my results still mystified (then again, it's all planned). YEp, i can't wait for it to unfold before me and I will give thanks for what it will be.

Celebrated Diana's ( above-fr sw) 22nd birthday!! As usual, the gender ratio was totally imbalance, crazily off! Usually, i'm fine wan...but it's a totally new group and tommy (guy from sw) had to fly airplane last min. sianz.
2 more guys came and they are fr grace's (fr sw too!!) church. They joined the girls after I left to catch the train home. All in all, a few of us had a very delicious dinner...what a way to celebrate my liberation!!

this is me and diana.. only naturally to take this picture ... no?


Yep, I see myself befriending more and more friends who are in sw majors.
I've enough of hi-bye schoolmates...whom are rather needless.
Anyway, I might be joining VCF next sem...

then again, u nv know if I AM REALLY TO COMMIT.

and so i took my train home...while i was waiting for my feeder bus to come, someone whom I wanted to meet since monday walked towards where i was and we ended up chatting for 4hrs

And I am baffled why she doesn't wanna to stay in heaven (if she could)but want to experience the trials in (many) lives (to come). And usually the talkative me felt God holding me back from speaking and got me to speak at the right time...
I cannot understand why pagan gods are worshipped. spiritual blindness...it's tragic thing of this world. And many pious worshippers of these gods do come up with 1001 reasons to back their teachings. Furthermore, this has make the verse in John 1:5 even more true " The light shines into darkness, but the darkness has not understood it."

I heard a sermon recording from cornerstone church.
It was marvellous. I love it. Our church need many such msg to feed many hungry pple...so that all of us can be chosen and not just invited (cf Matt 22:14)

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

last paper of yr1 -sw2104

air of liberation is 22.75hrs away....i'm dying
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cos
i wun be able to finish study everything
i have wait for more than 22.74hrs away.

for
my post exam activities to start: birthday dinner, voting, clearing up my desk, marche, kbox, dinner with thai teachers, minds cafe, chill, go out, movie....tuition

but i'll perservere

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