Friday, September 28, 2007

o lord, a tired soul

"oh soul are you weary and troubled? no light in the darkness you see? there's light for a look at the Savior, and life more abundant and free! Turn you ey-es upon Jesus, Look full in His wonderful face; and the things of earth will grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace"

i am tired

why is it that u have to cut me with ur words
why is it that u have disappointed me and gone back in ur words
why is it that i have the burden for the YA and stepped down from worship min
why is it that i have to disappoint you and go back on my promises...hurt you instead of protecting you.

why is it i feel that ur words affect me so much?
why is it that i dun feel attached to my committee?
why do i feel as though i've lost the ability?

why do i feel i've forsaken you, O lord
why is it that i have no guts and strength to face you, O lord
you said u will never forsake me and never leave me.
why then do i feel i haven't seen you heard you refreshed by you?

for the things of the world is full of deceptions, temptations and lies...
why do i have to feel the way i feel, even when i know u are in full control.
why is it that i have no guts to surrender to you what i haven't fully surrendered.

i feel down, out, restless.
i feel bogged down. YA, roller coaster ride, unresolved issues...

auntie carol, it's a tough question...
auntie janet, i feel touched by ur call and the way u encouraged
ps edwin, i am ashamed to see u

Monday, September 17, 2007

devotion inspired by bread and fishes

i knew of Corrinne May when i heard one of her songs from her second album... the one which she had to fight with monster from outter space...and also when the people around you can be an angel in disguise... I begin to appreciate her songs, its musicality and the off course very much touched by most...some of you may recall songs like the birthday song, same side of the moon, if you didn't love me, etc
Although you can pick up her style after a while, i think she writes from her heart and i thank God that her music and songs are well-received by people of various cultures, ethnicity and ages.
I did write about one of her songs... safe in a crazy world...that was one song that i took a liking the very first time i played her CD.

Now, for her album, i like to present to you
5 loaves and 2 fishes
"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you willI surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it allto feed them all"
I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all
But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer
So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"
Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you willI surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it allI hope it's not too small
I trust in youI trust in you
Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you willI surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small
- corrinne may
with that, i was motivated to write a devotion for a retreat.
and i believed it was inspired...
I like to share with whoever is reading this...
We ought to submit all our troubles, amibitions, dreams, desires and plan to God who is in control, in charge of everything.
We have the retreat at the point of time when some of us are going to have tests and quizzes, challenges and assignments is to
remind ourselves that our God is a One who never shortchange us.

We might be experiencing struggles, humiliation, discomfort in the our vocation (who says young adults are not stressed up!), and Jesus reminds us to rest in Him, to rest our Hearts... to realign our eyes back to Him.

Some of us are skeptical and be 'less' faithful, but Jesus is forever faithful and He blesses us more than what we can ever imagine...even more when we entrust our daily acitvities to Him, when we lift up our prayers to Him.
It is not an easy task. No more said this Christianity thingy is smooth sailing- but our rewards are in Heavens, for eternity.

We might feel less confident in ourselves, in our abilities, in our talents, in effort- whether or not things are gonna work in MY way.

Jesus who turned water into wine, who healed the blind, who raised the dead, who walked on water, who fed the thousands with 5 bread and 2 fishes can do all things.

Would you like to learn to surrender all things to Jesus?
Do you want to rest in Him?
Have you have no faith in Him?

think about it... rest in it.
there are more songs... like '33', 'beautiful seed'... that are worth the listen.
------mid term break is just around the corner..................................................here....

Thursday, September 13, 2007

time flies

it's the end of the 5th week for me in school. this sem like very fast.

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