..the beads and p*sses of dumbo-no-more

day1offc

iz day 1 of fieldcamp. my first proper wan n des's last wan. i respect him. even though we hafen been worked for long but i think i know him well enuff to comment that he is indeed very very encouraging and also with his jovial outlook and character, he allows me to share with ease.
well..now.i perceive that the ord symptoms are there...cannot blame him. but he still works. that's work. i have still alot to learn from this brudder.

just moments ago, the tot of how imperfection Man is.
How easy is it for Man to fall into trap set up by the dark.
Iz only by faith, thru God that we can overcome all temptations.
LUST, GREED, VULGARITY...
aiyoh...very jialat.

i was labelled the bastard PC a month ago...now..i just cannot play that role (properly).
u see how i turned them out at 2330hr...how i pumped em during admin hours..how i picked on lil' things on them so as to tekan them...
kaoz.

i hafen the time to read newspaper. One yr from now, i'll be in school. I'll be studying. I'll be making frens. not like now. i'm in tekong. i'm teaching recs. i'm tekaning them.
cannot fathom how 'soft' saf is becoming. serious. just a yr ago, we were treated worst than dirt..worst than grass..in the end, we managed to get out of the shithole..but now, we must follow guidelines when we treat them to pushing-up...watz de pt then. every mother son can do them...no -kick. but off course there are some who simply cmi.

think i'm blogging super slow today. y? no inspiration? dunno.

poor des had to book in yesterday for DOO duty. i hate duty. but iz responsibility.
sigh. i sometime cannot understand how pck thinks...i dun really wanna care but since i'm his 2ic-to-be, his stand-in when he goes on course in oct...i have to.
today we are supposed to have imt demonstration for 2PS. in the end also dun have.
now busy with inf dining in.
also i'm tasked to do OIC for enlistment at Pasir Ris the following day. extra job. what for? learning? perhaps. blessing in disguise...must be. rmb? His plan?

also....i'm seriously hoping desmundo goes to church soon. he buys wow worship.
but iz time to go back, need to, have to.
it takes courage to go back esp after u backslide. i backslided. thank God i went back.

posted by WILLIAM @ 1:11 PM