esp when the datelines come crushing and the harsh reality that time is really not on my side.
the cruelty of my honours year is that i'm not the only one facing this tremendous amount of work which creates a choking sensation.
some of them are showing signs of crack; some have cried a bucket; some whose pressure are building and it's only a matter b4 it blows.
the temptation of sleeping in, skipping useless seminars.
arriving late for seminars is beginning to be a norm for me.
sigh, how pathetic.
sometimes i really feel like letting it go, and like a free market, things may regulate itself.
insurmountable difficulties esp with a brain that process slower than i want it to be. have i reached my limits?
BUT when i listen to worship songs like, it's as though i'm lifted from my worries.
even reading my bible is so refreshing. but the thing is that i touch my notes, assignments more than i touch my bible.
I prayed and i received the assurance but God help me! my human flesh is weak and my mind strays into the path where doubts, fear thrives and manifest; where light is seen at the far end.
Weekly cell group meetings maybe robbed and i disgust with the fact that i even have to consider that option.
What makes me alive now is my weekends, and the intangible love in the relationships i have with God and the ppl around. will they be strong enough to see me thru...
I'm sure they will. tell me they will. let me be convinced.
I have Christ, He who has overcome the world and even death.
no amount of failures and stress can ever pluck me from His hand, cos i am His and He is mine...here in the power of Christ I stand.
posted by WILLIAM @ 12:43 PM
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