Sunday, January 28, 2007

no greater calling

"There is no greater calling than to serve your fellow men,
nor greater contribuition than to help the weak.
There is no greater satisfaction than to have
done it well."
social work... the response i made when God called 4 years ago.

Friday, January 26, 2007

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

today's classes

what a surprise!!!
today..during my tutorial for gender issues... there was this discussions... not just on the 'WHAT' issues...which off course is usually the case...
the tutor went into the "WHY"...
1. why is there a perception that women are more likely to be able to read nonverbal cues (compared to men). for eg people examine pictures of people's faces or watching a videotape without hearing sound and are asked to decide what mood the person is.

then, there was an exchange of friendly arguements (gains vs lose, power control, incentive, taught emotive words,..as a matter of choice)
those terms were mentioned because a student was supporting his case from the ABILITY to do so...and just that...and then the tutor had to ask WHY then even if the guys have the ability to do that but CHOOSE NOT to do it.

this is just one eg.
i enjoy 'why's...
it's not that there is right or wrong...but sometimes that is the way it is.
perhaps God made us this way...authentic and unique in His sight
women compliment men...

then after that, there was a lecture on urban youth... as dr nair was speaking...i was thinking of the 'how do a social worker does that?' eg...how does a social worker deal with a family with incest/rape...'
ya,...

classes in uni are ought to be like these. mind triggering, challenging and exciting...
but off course these shouldn't be stressors. they just work our minds.

Monday, January 22, 2007

from a sermon

are u the
rejected lost
people who are infamous, notorious. they could be rapist, gang leaders. but these are the ppl the rejected in the eyes of the society. pple who dun want to be relate themselves too. DUN BE SEEN associating to them. ppl with cruel exploitation.

everyday when we walk down orchard rd, we will surely see pple with strange hairdo, tattoos all over their bodies and piercing everywhere.. and we instinctly walked away from them.
This is how we react when we see pple who are different, and strange and some of us shake our heads in disapproval... condemning them. well... that's judgement.

by body language, these friends will know they have captured about attention and on top of tat, we have non-verbaly rejected them.

Jesus wants them. these ppl were drawn to Jesus.

rich lost
some people who are rich but they are equally lost. they can be leading an aimless,empty life.
rich but aimless

religion lost
biblically known as the pharisees.
they advocates the following of rules... join the inner circle..exclusive mentality
but Jesus reserved some of the harshest words for them. Also, they are caught up in their world of ritual.
the elder son in the Prodigal Son is indeed a portrayal of the pharisee.
He was self-righteousness, proud and felt better than his younger brother. They are lost in the worship experience of God.

for all 3 categories of lost pple, Jesus has compassion for them ALL.
which category are u in? none...then's it's ok...

THe more questionable and shaddy the people feel they are , the more appealing they find Jesus becos Jesus is compassion
BUT PPLE THESE DAYS STAY AWAY FROM CHURCH BECOS THEY ARE AFRAID THEY WILL BE JUDGED.
some find a sense of superiority in church.
such contrast from Jesus...

i'm so sorry that christians have given u that impression.
But I can assure u that Jesus came to seek and save the Lost.

Jesus came to seek and to save what was lost

Each of us are made in the image of God. He places high value on us.
Look at the price that Jesus sacrificed to come look for the Lost... He gave up his kingdom to take on human flesh.
For those who are lost and then found ... the heavenly will be more than happy...the angels will throw a party... (it's really like when we lost our staff...our wallet, document files, files....work...and thought hope is gone, then it IS FOUND!! how glad we would be la...)

Augustin who once led a promiscuous life but had converted " God by loving the unlovable, u made me lovable..."
do u think u are lovable?
well...we are not right..cos in the eyes of God ,we have turned rebellious and ugly.
but God will still love us, the unlovable..and in the process, transformed into beauty...This is His commitment to us...He will knowing leave us...He wants to save us completely...He is the author and perfector of our faith..and this is for each and EVERY single person....

every single person...
are u lost...?

Saturday, January 20, 2007

to allow and to want

What we think is very much a matter of what we allow ourselves to think.
What we feel is very much a matter of what we allow ourselves to feel.

Further
What we think is very much a matter of what we want to think.
What we feel is very much a matter of what we want to feel.

Lord, renew my mind and spirit daily...
purify me................i desperately NEED your mercy and love.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

for ur thoughts

After studying in the university for 1.5yrs... i do agree with edwin that some stuff that are taught to us are mere facts... but as to why they happen, reasons are not presented.
Certainly, some may say that, as tertiary students, we have the abilities and resources like the internet (wikipedia, google, youtube) and libraries (bookstores)to explore the answers.
Well, i think some book critics out there may agree with me that there are books, references that are absolutely crap and shaddy... books with appaling writings (eg. writings from dumbo-no-more's blog)....back to the pt.

i major in social work. i read about psychotherapists, like, Freud, who because of some silly and outtof the world ideas/theories... became FAMOUS... yes, there are criticisms but just think about his oedipus complex, castration anxiety... dun u think it sound crazy.

God created man and women the way they are la...

ok, some books just mentioned 'what'what'what'what'... and i have to think 'why'why'why'...and many a times, i try to reason from the most practical, logical, sensible perspectives...

edwin and evan, both of them always spawn ideas and conceptualise, criticise and analyse topics so well that i think they make better lecturers than some in school.
for end-of-semester evaluation i would definitely comment that they do trigger my thoughts...

i try not to reason and argue from the theological pt of view which surely will not work simply becos i'm not in a theological college and i will not be able to pull of my arguments.

and ya, so when i study, i get quite pissed off with the writers...
they go around the bush and miss the pt.
we go around the pt and miss the real things.
we miss the real things and at the end of the day, we ask...'why?'

imagine you're a guy (if u're a girl)
you and your wife are expecting a child.
9 months have passed and the baby's gonna be due...
BUT

the doctor realises that there are some complicationsand either the mama or the baby can live...
before your wife's pushed into the OT, she mumbles in pain to you: save the baby..........

now it's your decision...
1. will you save your wife, or will you respect your wife's decision to save the baby?
why do you make that decision?

another question :
during the course of your wife/your pregnancy, the doctor found out the your child is suffering from down syndrome...

2.will you keep the baby, or will you choose to end its life? if yes, y? if no, y?

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

aiyoyo

when a mama's boy learn how much to keep to oneself and how much to share/divulge to his ma...
it feels weird...

part of growing up and be independent.
accountable to the adults for actions and speech, including my God.
b credible in one's behaviour...
honour one's promises, including to my God.
train to be faithful and fruitful, to those around and to God.

share the things/people/emotions/God that he loves to those he loves and cares...and that includes 惠

Friday, January 12, 2007

SAD......DAMN SAD

WHEN U LOSE SOMETHING OR SOMEONE WHICH AND WHO IS SO PRECIOUS TO YOU, UR EYES WILL WATER, UR NOSE WILL TURN SOUR... AND B4 YOU REALISE, UR CHEEKS ARE MOIST WITH TEARS WHICH FALL SO EASILY AND VULNERABLY, AUTOMATICALLY.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

300 pts

Choice.
i'm faced with decision making again.
Resident assistant or regular volunteer at NUH.
a few months ago was to go or NOT to go HK for exchange at the second half of this year.

logically speaking, i know what to choose le.

sometimes logic helps. sometimes faith works.

Oh ya. i WAS super pissed. I spent 800 points to get a modules when i realised i could enjoy similar privileges if i had chosen another class at 550pts or so. later on, i realised my fren got that similar module for ONE pt at the very last minute when there was no demand for it.

sighzzzz....300 pts. i could have kept it, used it on another module.
grousing.
yea. i grouse too

Monday, January 08, 2007

first day

i'm back at the spacious and bare lvl3 of NUS Central Lib.
a place where muggers reign!! muahahaha...
anyway, it's a new semester... very briefly...i'm no longer doing thai language even though i still love it simply because it is NOT helpful for my CAP.

well..i'm doing a mod on youth, a mod on counseling, a mod on gender in social work practice, a mod on SEA music, a mod on gene

yday was my first time back for support singing... feels fantastic being back to serve God in the music ministry

yday's sermon was speaking on 3H. HUNGER FOR GOD. AN HONEST HEART. A HUMBLE HEART. short and sweet...wherwie good...

rite...i better get back doing my research le la

Friday, January 05, 2007

a new yr, a new beginning, a new challenge...

Hi all...
it's been almost one week since i last update!
After my involvement with the Clown musical, i had the rest of the time with myself and her... and certainly i hoped i hafen been neglecting my frens cos i remembered i did spend time with them. HAha... i did rite..

i rmbered eating lunch and going to victor's hse for a time for praise and worship on his mini grand and guitar.
I rmbered going to see vjchoir carol at the Raffles Hotel on Christmas Day after Christmas service with my new frens from true way.
I rmbered going for retreat...going Mustafa Centre in the middle of the night and also catchin the Man-United vs Reading at Selegie... wow...

how nice was it when she reminded me that it was her so that i went for my first NDP. and also it was because of her that i managed to went to the live recording of 超级superstar on tues. Oh ya, as for the next pt, i think she forgot to mention,w/o her i wouldn't have FREE movie voucher to watch DEATH NOTE2 and 伤城。。。thank q arh...

on a minor key,

i think i have been a really bad boy when i look freaking decent.
SINNER. BASTARD. NUISANCE. PAIN-CAUSER.
but i guess no matter what, He would have taken them...
i ought not to take them as a licence to KILL STEAL and DESTROY hur

Oh well...my coming semester is supposed to be having a 3-day week schedule but i last minutes adjustment had thwarted the plan. now it's 4day...tues-fri...and tues and fri have only a lesson each.

The new year... i believe it will not be easy though His yoke is light.

谢谢你,惠。
对不起。
x x x =)

days ahead... pls pls pls dun leave me... u promise u nv.
days ahead... pls pls pls dun... u didn't promise...but try wun't u.

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