Saturday, December 31, 2005

2005 and 2006

More of You and Less of me

it's once again the last day of a yr.
and we're going to comment that how time flies.

that's cliche.

the fact we have limited time on earth shows that we are finite creatures and thus let us maximise it and utilise it like nv b4.
why waste your youth (that's for the younger readers) and your time on stuff that are not precious?
try challenging and new stuffs ..stay within legislations.
experience different things. live your time on earth an eventful, powerful and inspiring one.

there are many things out there which u think are beyond your reach.
who says so until u bother to try.
let us not lament at the end of the yr or in fact when we are at our deathbeds (one day) then we think why we hafen lived our lives to the fullest.

The old yr will be gone in a few hours time. the new one is here for us to embrace and let us welcome it graciously, lovingly and with hopes.

i'm glad that the TMT was an eventful and i'm awe-stricken by each and every moment there.
I'm still amazed that i dunno how to tell u readers.
for one, i'm humbled. truly humbled by my Lord and Saviour, my Friend and Brother.

i'll start my 2006 with a rather eventful schedule: meeting, crashing, bidding, movies, stay-over aka bonding, birthdays. but i tell myself to learn how to take things easy, slow and steady. and that applies to u readers out there. sometimes we must rmb to slow down, breathe, rest and then carry on. Certainly it'll be good if u all can rest under the wing of the Lord.

thank you for being faithful in reading my blog.

yea..i thank my God so much for what He has done thru me, with me, in me in 2005.
all honours and praise to Thy name!

and i'll just inform u guys how i'll welcome 2006.
EPL match : MAN UNITED vs BOLTON WANDERERS.

=)

Monday, December 19, 2005

annoucement

the much awaited mission trip has arrived

i'm off from today,191205 to 281205

all my bags are packed, i'm ready to go
i'm standing here outside my door
i hate to write to you to say goodbye
but the time has arrived, it's 10 o clock
the car's waiting, he's blowing his horn
i'm ready
i'm so excited i could cry..
-sing it to the 'leaving on the jet plane' tune
-may the blood of Christ cover us all-

More of You and Less of me

Sunday, December 18, 2005


Joanne's baptism.... welcome to God's huge family Posted by Picasa


after her baptism....i like this picture simply bcos it's a picture of my sister and I!! Posted by Picasa


hey, we had an enjoyable 'christmas' meal... her and the number x man in her life. crap Posted by Picasa


thanks desmond for the gathering! i didn't quite expect such event to happen, really.  Posted by Picasa


1xidiot.but which one? Posted by Picasa


during YA retreat...during haji 05 Posted by Picasa

Saturday, December 17, 2005

20mins

More of You and Less of me

it's about 4am in the morning and i am all alone at home.
I dun like it.
it's about 4am in the morning and where are my dear parents and sister.
I miss them.
I'm a sentimentalist and i value pple alot.

Sadly, there are some i really want to forget. not some. one.sadly, yar sadly.

I wonder how pple weigh the importance and values of my words spoken to them.
Words can be powerful. they can influence decisions and shape lives. They are build and are capable of destruction.
Although action speaks louder than words, they are merely outward physical expressions. However, they create (emotional) bonds and some can be beneficial while others can be malevolent.

a fren of mine commented that she enjoys sharing her life, her opinions with others.
That's something i do as well. By doing it, i place myself in a vulnerable position. and i always do that.

recently i received a call that disappointed me a lil. I knew it was gonna be like that. I saw it coming. I dun mind helping. sometimes i get mixed up with the way i feel. but thank God i have Him to help re-align my direction and focus. Now is not the time for me to venture further than what we are now which is cherishable.

realised the gap of this entry to the previous one is about 5 days apart... ya.. that's long, considering i'm having holiday (a break, so to speak) but in fact, i'm busy at church. I go down church almost daily. And on one of the days when i had 'off', i went kayaking and bballing with NS officer frens... pleasantly surprised with the invitation and wanting to meet up with them motivated me to wake up from bed after a 3hrs sleep. Now, i've alr gotten a lil' tanned..i hope by the time i get back on the 28th from singburi, i'll be more tanned.

snipped my hair and look like a PTE.

sister is getting baptised later and i'm witnessing this 'beautiful' moment. Glad i have the chance to participate in her baptism! ... will drive off to church.... for worship prac....

i will miss those pple whom i will i miss when i'm away at the place that i will be at.

heart cracks.... i'm also doing something like what u are doing, not meeting datelines and numbers.....

i wish i could re-start from xx/xx/200x. - not with xx,xx,xx...not like that
so that it can b a quality time meaningfully spent.
i wish i could re-do some stuff.. perhaps, not.
i wish i could re-celebrate my commissioning parade - pple
i wish i could come to cpc earlier - missing out a huge chunk of church-life
i wish i would not be wishful

i like hebrew12:2 - second compo
king kong was worth every cent. it's a sad romantic show. There were scary scenes...i'm surprised it's pg. it was his option to die for the beauty; beauty didn't kill him.

from the above entry, u would roughly know i'm quite mixed up right now.

at 0420hrs, i'm getting mixed up
and i dun like that cos i know that isn't something from Him.
at 0420hrs, i think that life w/o Jesus ...w/o God... w/o the Holy spirit....the universe will crumble and fall, mankind will sink to the pt of no return.

sign off

Monday, December 12, 2005

the thoughts of

More of You and Less of me

the thought of going to church tmr for the church directory is not exactly very pleasant.

the thought of going thailand for mission trip in 7days w/o knowing basic conversational thai is not exactly very pleasant too.

the thought of hip hop i did last sat doesn't being me a smile cos i danced badly.

the thought of having mission training instead of going places like minds cafe, sentosa can be quite disappointed but i know it is impt to attend training sessions.

the thought of having to go thru with Christ is comforting enough to handle the above!

Thursday, December 08, 2005

dating with PURE passion

More of You and Less of me

'when u share numerous simililarities with someone, you improve ur ability to develop a long term connection. Furthermore,. by viewing life in the same way, you reduce the potential for conflict. Which similiarities are most helpful? psychologists cite such issues as" intellect, spirituality, intimate verbal sharing, interests, and role expectations." The most destructive differences include " energy levels, personal habits, uses of money, and verbal skills.'
-dating with pure passion pg72
'so do not settle for less than what your heart truly desires.'
-dating with pure passion pg70

staying up

More of You and Less of me

I need devine help to write yet another devotional passage to be used during mission trip. Need also to get some songs to sings... felt a lil bad for not attending the training session in church the last 2days. but i think they are coping fine. ya, that's wat one of the vege told me.

reading dating with pure passion and i think it is a good-read. thanks ahren
i'm half way thru already and so far they have been very informative and thought-triggering, reflective to an extent.
Ruth, i'm sure u can learn LOADS from it since ppl like me is enriched so much.
Ting, do u think love language is coming to me soon?hee

ANyw, my family is going thru stage in the family structure called ' propeling the youth'
this stage sees the parents learning to let go, youth developing into adults and taking more responsibilities. I am very thankful got my family and i do cherish it a lot for my parents, though not very highly educated, are effective in parenting... they learn how to understand youth like my sister and young adults like me. I learnt how to entrust us in matters and tasks.
These shouldn't be taken for granted. Thus, i do try my best to help out in chores at home though at times i do return home late and not see their faces at all in a day.

anyway, i am glad that my dear ol sis is getting baptised 2sats from now.
i'm trying hip hop this sat.

staying up to watch champions league: manchester united vs benifica....

vege, take care and haf fun up north
another vege, happy birthday!
vege, the last one, do wanna talk to you soon....

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

wonderful days

More of You and Less of me

with the holy spirit's help... i penned a chinese worship song (titled: ne3 shuo1). praise God.
simple melody. i think the words are so-so too.
But I'm thankful for it is my first composition!!
The chords need modifications too.

Spent a day out with church brothers and sisters on sunday. I enjoyed myself thoroughly. Got home quite late about 1am. I'm always happy to see how we can enjoy each other company even after half a day at church. we continue this fellowship even after svc. Now i just pray that the new YA 'team' can be utilised to its maximum ability as we grow alongside with every YA members.

Supposed to go down church to prep for TMT but decided to carry on with tmr's appointment with mrs thong , evan and victor + dental appointment on wed...
TMT prep is very xiong. but i want and i know i will enjoy every moment of it!!

Am reading another new book...(supposed to be narnia..but it turned out to be another book...)called DAtIng With PAsSiOn.
Jesus, the lover of my soul.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

the day after yesterday

More of You and Less of me

It's been a long break. I'm clearly still alive and kicking, barely.. since my exam is over and all of a sudden, i felt a sense of loss. 'A SENSE OF LOSS!!'u must think i am insane. ya, perhaps.. afterall battling for 7days with 5 papers, it's possible.. if they are like health education, cme, social studies, music-blow recorder kinda...oooh, then no kick..this time it was chinese business followed by social work...buffered well by a 100qn psyche MCQ and nonsensical and devastating cultural shity..i meant study...and modernisation of malays...
i felt a sense of lost...no longer need to mai tou ku du (provided i did...i think i did..ask alvin, andrew, valerie...eh, evan can also justify..ya he can! =))

this sense of loss is strangely similar when we celebrate CNY and Christmas...the exciting part is when we are expecting the arrival of those days . u long for the days to come and when they come smack infront of ya, u are like 'huh'...it's here!? oh? what do i do... and it's all gone after 24/48 hrs... aiyah.. i'm bulling la.
ya, 'bull' is a term i've been using... eg . the lecturer is taking bull..get it?!

I know u dun expect such expression from a refined person like me...come on..?!

the sense of liberation WILL set in once i wake up tmr morning.
yea...a great line-up ahead...though i think ting's programme so far has been pretty adventurous...sheesh.. sailing. i want that.. but nah, not dying my hair.
I will be going church quite often and i like it! they need help,esp durin dec..
have thai mission trip (TMT) to handle.. i'm appointed safety and security ic. believe it or not. it's fact not fiction (got this term from today's STRAITS TIME...some journalist was trying to explain singapore's stand on the death sentence of the vietnam-descent australian drug trafficker). Also, i'm asked to co-lead a worship service on the 30th dec which is probably the substitute service for watchnight. not sure. but i want to and hope i can serve Him in such a manner. YEP! GOD TAKE ME AND MOULD ME, USE ME AND FILL ME. yea! this dec is gonna be exciting...TMT's surely the icing. i can't contain my excitement for it is my first mission trip and i'm so gonna witness how God work amongst the thais whom he equally love. i'm gonna spend christmas 05 in thailand...spreading the love of God and the Good News to God's creations! sheesh... and my team is made up of very fun and workable,teachable and creative pple...

i wun let time slip pass me this dec. gonna exercise, i mean run.. yep! go get some tan...sentosa, (night) cycling, sing k, bday parties, catch up with old frens, visit the dentist...enough to keep me occupied. furthermore, i think i should help out with chores at home,starting with my not-so-messy table. my mum has a neat fetish...nah.. used to la... she has 'nagged' me thrice in ONE evening to tidy up my not-so-messy table.

During the examination period... there were some cold evenings and nights. Cold weather stimulates me to ponder, reminise..to have flashback..to experience de-javu. the cold and still air created feelin of nostalgia. really, if the HDB flats were removed and replaced with a low-lying houses...i would experience hawaii once again. I would experience the cold winter prague and finland once again.. i stared blankly outside my flat and tried my very best to recollect the beautiful times of carolling and performing at secondary school and college. Does cold environment make one travel to the past. reliving sweet and cherishable times? (SOMEONE TELL ME THIS IS NOT SELF PSYCHOANALYTICAL TREATMENT) For me, a dark cloudy day, cool breeze blowing intermittently is pretty sufficient to bring me back to good old days. good old days may not be significant events but surely they left deep impression in my declarative episodic memory...

God played a huge and crucial role during my exam. I was so stressed,though uneasily noticed, that i reached school at 0845 when my paper begins at 1pm only. such is a bloggable event. never in my life have i encountered such incident. Have u? thankfully God prepared my fren to receive me into her hall...so that i could study for the paper the following day. and thru her, i got to know pplive.com. check it out for yourself.
Since this is my first exam in uni, i would have experience some glitches occasionally but God is gracious enough to lead me through 'exciting' times..usually the last 30mins of the exam. hahha..I prayed b4 starting my second and last essay 40 minutes b4 timesup. I prayed for time extension through slowing down of time so that i can conclude my essay nicely towards the end and not left it as a cliffhanger. That'll be worse.
I'd rather satisfy half the requirement of the qn than to give an uncompleted essay.

There were some occasions tat God encourage me thru his words.

day b4 my social work paper:
" When the master comes and finds the servant doing HIS work, the servant will be blessed." - Matt 24:46

SINCE i plan to major sw, i was trying my best to revise all i can. Yar...until the point when i couldn't take it le, i reached out for my devotional book and turned to this page. On it says : ..for every million who aspire, only one achieves. The vast majority of us don't hit the big ball, dun wear gold medal...(allow me to add: dun get scholarships, dun grad with honours, dun earn 500k in his lifetime,dun pass driving test on the first attempt, dun pass first uni exam with CAP of >4).
AND THAT'S ok. we understand that in the ECONOMY OF EARTH, there are a limited number of crowns. The economy of heaven, however, is refreshingly different. Heavenly rewards are not limited to a chosen few, but "to all those who have waited with love for him to come again" - 2Tim4:8

on the day of my sw paper:
"O LOrd, O Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth."
- Ps 8:1

AMEN! i was looking for a verse to encourage me...
I'm sure his majesty filled my ER too

and there was one more. I read this on the day of my psychology paper. This particular one was speaking to the emotive side of me. Yep, He knows me thru and thru and I felt I should read the entire psalm again and again until i see what He want me to see...and so it was
"But i trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in you salvation. I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me" - Ps 13:5-6

Hallelujah! He knows what has affected me. He knows my desire. Apparently He is telling me to TRUST and also to REJOICE...for HE HAS BEEN GOOD TO ME!

Thank you dear jesus.
This time i managed to get on with life even after a sucky paper. God's immeasurable love and transcending peace is poured forth in me. I want to trust in Him so much so i do not wanna worry.

Also, i have decided what to take for next sem le.
el: the nature of english language
ec: introduction analysis of economic (something lidat)
ml: malay language
sw: relationship skills and social work ; social group and community work practice

well.. very long post. very patient of u to finish reading.
God bless

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