God-sent
i got a faithful GOd.
a God who shows His faihfulness thru my weariness.
thank You for ur timely reminder:
isaiah 41:13For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.
Matthew 11:28
Come to me, all you who are
weary and burdened,
and
I will give you rest.
half of the team leadrs came to collect their board.
Good Lord that He had Auntie Soh Lian and Bess to buy the banner cloth, to write and paint on it.
HALLELUJAH
now, that sweehiang is sick..me too, chye hoi's daughters are down with fever...hmm.
Spiritual warfare..and we know we shall FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT OF THE FAITH.
vic, i'm glad that u got another opportunity to worship leader.
May God annoint ur lips and leading.
HA, guess what i found my lost pri school crush online. via nus email..
need to clear up some misunderstand.
ref: funnyday
i mentioned about spending $122 FOR 100 photos...
ERRATTUM: $42 ONLY LA.
i didn't tell u all that i made another mistake which is, not listening carefully.
so dad, mum...dun worry. i'm still financially fine.
OKEI...shall kun le.
nitez
God bless
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bidding
is exciting.
i miss the last moment of the open bid.
cos i slept..
and the system jammed like nv before.
and fyi, social work mod is a pretty popular mod...cos the
no of bidders for both lecture group has exceeded the quotas..
and as my fren mentions...this is cut throat reality.
how weird
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no! i'm not captured by aliens...
..i'm just sick, busy and excited...
i had a good break at penang.
didn't have time to tell story.
just briefly say it was a fruitful rest.
I know i wun be feel regretful now that i went penang to spend time with my grandma.
She's old. Honestly, she'll not be on earth for long....so i felt i've done what i could.
Prayed for her too.. didn't have the linguistic (hokkien ability) to talk to her about Christ.
but i prayed for my cousin's children and my cousins...
Took time off from some-what irritating church activity - carnival.
had space and time for myself. enjoying the simplicity of life at Penang.
Spent some time with God...to search for answer for the sticky qn i have.
How often do u think about the person who loves u?
Do u speak the love language of that person?
SHow them b4 u regret.
One who is at the deathbed usually think of people around him wan....
at the end of the day, it is the relationship between pple that seems precious.
I got the answer by the way.
now time is the factor.
am i speaking in greek?
yeah, so i went penang and back..didn't have time.
cos i was on the go again once i was back.
Celebrated alvin's birthday.
ta almost a pint of beer and got flushed.
vasodilate easily.
quite high.
shit. i suck at drinking afterall.
come arts bash 2.. i see how tequila gonna kill me!! muahahaha
matriculated le.
excited times.
bidding is tmr.
for those who still dunno, this fellow is majoring social work.
yeah
picking up ML or French or Thai along the way.
3days week.
cheers!
God bless
and may the carnival comes and goes quickly
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life i lead now
honesty is the best policy cos
u really feel better
u feel better when u come clean with issues.
it's a struggle.
the pride's in the way. u want to do it ur way. u think ur way is better.
nah, i wanted to handle it myself. seek the solution myself. became selfish.
b fair
be as honest as u can.
already the world is so full of sin,
why should i add another one,
or worst, be part of it.
it takes a contrite heart, a broken spirit to experience God's grace, love and the power of the holy spirit even more.
Lord, i pray that Your goodness be manifested in and thru me.
That the ugly and bastardish character be removed from me.
sigh,
sorry to some of u out there.
that's all i'm saying.
i dun wish to elaborate anymore....
i've got time limit. i dunno if it's too long or short.
ur response created an admiration. nv have i thought ur reaction be so gracious.
so very gracious.
i am so drained as well; one activity after another.
so drained that i'm not ministering life to others.
all by my strength...if i cont lidat sure die.
I WANNA a sabbatical!
dunno if i've mentioned in the previous blogs about my trip to penang later in the evening not.
Going to penang to visit for ah-ma , also to take a break from the life i'm having in spore, alsp hope i can take time, be still,...and encounter God again, praying that He'll can speak life, conviction to me...
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struggle to a better life?
I’ve spoken to many a few crucial issues recently.
Thanks for being there.
Have u watched the series LOST.
Pretty cool.
There was a guy who was on drugs. Pretty hard core.
There was another guy, older and wiser (so to speak, perhaps he had revelations).
He found out and decided to help him, to clean him.
Obviously, the guy who thought he wouldn’t be able to live life with getting high on drugs, he wanted the drugs back…under that circumstance, he still continued to take drugs so to escape from reality, pain and problems.
Old man was laid down his terms.
3x.
Ask me 3 times for the drugs and I’ll return to u (and perhaps u can cont to live life like a rot rat…NAH.he didn’t say that).
Such habit is hard to kick.
No matter how hard he tries .. he couldn’t resist the momentary satisfaction from the drugs; asked the oldie the second time.
Old man said he was trying to help him.
He knows it is difficult to change…to change for good.
No one said it was.
He brought the chap to a moth cocoon.
With a jackknife in his hand, oldie said…(somewhere along that line, I’m adding words to the exact script)
‘we all know there is something not so beautiful inside this cocoon.
Yet this thing spins silk. To escape and to free itself from the silk cocoon is no easy task.
I can help it…but slicing the cocoon into two. It seems that I’ve helping the fellow. But no, it has to take time, to grow, to fight, to free itself from this bondage. If I were to help it now, it will struggle and die.’
QN: Is it necessary to struggle b4 we develop into one with a better character?
Must we learn thru hard and difficult lesson b4 we can be transformed?
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daz who helped..
i final clear up what breadth, gem are
MC, maj, UE and wat have u.
thanks diana =)
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motion?
hanz's at my place now.
i'm in a dilemma. should i carry on?
stop/pause/rewind/ ffwd/heck care.
go, procrastinate?
change gear, speed?
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funnyday
i realise i hafen written about current affairs around the world.
i hafen commented about the gruesome murder where the body parts of a china girl was chopped up, neither have i mentioned about the cop that committed suicide...silly. did i also miss out on the recent IOC bidding..., how about the latest london blast..dere, i just mentioned about it.
i'm not trying to make issues like that funny.
they are not.
bloody terrorists. stop the terrorizing (now hack the -ise and-ize, they are the same now).
try terrorizing your own kind.
pple killing for peace. how siao.
for those who are back from london, uk for holz. count your blessings.
give thanks to the Lord.
our lives are like waves tossed in the ocean, vapour in the wind.. yet the Kings of Kings
bothers about us.
where am i?
yes, london blast. pretty sickening..living in a climate of fear.
in
hebrews13:1
Keep on loving each other as brothers.
2Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some people have entertained angels without knowing it.
ya, entertain strangers, they may be corrupted too..but God loves em.
He embraces us, not the sins though.
U heard about a possible pandemic of bird-flu in the asean region. terrible. we can resort to pills and supplement as the only source for energy in decades to come le la...
this world is crazy. read in the papers and saw in the news that
tw just conducted another ex..
china just told us to keep their hand away from certain issues..
the physically disadvantaged community in HK demanded more subsidy..
on another hand
london won the bid to hold olympic 2012
gerrard decided to stay at anfield
(what are the good things man...?)
306 was tranferred to my account this morning.
surprised.
thought i could treat my dad for a good dinner on sun...at brewerkz..good food and beer..
thought maybe i can go for a cheonging session *"after so long"* with han and flaming and etc
thought i could go penang w/o much problem
thought i could tithe more..
in the end...becos we so love money...yeah, the greed within us...
what happened was i forget to pass a slip of paper that states the specific photo i wanted to be developed with the memo chip.
i handed him the memory chip at the photo developing shop and left...had lunch...prepared for tuition...then I RECALLED.
it was 10 mins too late. he got 100 plus digi photo developed and i need to pay 122.2dollars.
i need only to pay 20plus dollars lor...
sheesh...terrible.
a difference of 100 dollars lor...can happily go sing k leh...
why did i forget to pass him the slip of paper...
so i have to face this consequence...quite a fair 'punishment'
so i parted with 122.2 outta 306...
then came evening... i was told to return another fren of mine 14 using my 306...ahem.
and another 2 to the person who transferred me the cash, stating that she made a mistake.
hebrews13:5 Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you;
never will I forsake you."
YEP, and thanks ah-ren for the encouraging verse:
malachi3:10
Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it.
the Lord is asking us to
test HIM...hmmm
He'll THROW open the floodgates of heaven and POUR (not bit by bit) out blessings leh..
wanna tell u all..that this God of mine, is veryvery veryvery faithful.
He knew i was in need of cash.i had to borrow le.
so He provided a buyer to buy my MLM account for $500.
I'm getting the second instalment of $200 this weekend.
He got me a student via juan...and the rate is $25 perhr..twice a week, 1.5 hrs per session...
now i got 3 students..and i got to intro a couple to my buddy.
See...He's a God of abundance.
got to find out tat my tutee's sister who is only 12 has been given permission to visit a church near their residence. the two siblings are going to church by THEMSELVES. very happy.
I hope and pray that God can use me to bring these two to Him.
His will be done on earth as it is in Heaven.
God bless
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at 4am
back from rd2 of talking tonight.
went gmail, hotmail and friendster.
then i decided to do this.
dun wanna think too much about it.
it makes me go crazy.
what did i do to deserve such?
i should know.
wished i could turn back time.
to where i'm not sure.
but do i really wanna do that?
my intention has nv been bad.
HAS nv been bad.
where's the new person?
stuck in the old flesh?
sigh.
thanks for the time and the energy and the few tens of dollars.
oh ya, for some, it's the increment of weights...i guess u can just put off your diet plan,
for a while.
i drank to up my courage to talk. and when did i become like that.
i'm glad no body's pushing me (Except Myself)
give me time, how much is enough?
still it's the old me; ask the blue rose.
who can keep me safe in a crazy world
I try to smile my tears away
I try to keep my cool
Oh but one more door gets in my way
I feel like such a fool
Trampled and bitter
My heart just wants to bleed and stop
Believing in me
It feels like nothing is for certain and that nothing comes for free
When they're lowering the curtain
to the theatre of my dreams
I stumble and I crumble and
I'mSinking to my knees but you
You cradle me
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again
Noise keeps chasing me
No matter where I go
Oh and life likes pretending that it's
On a TV show
When it's hard to tell what's real
From what the world just wants to preach
You are the voice I seek
You keep me flying You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand meEmbrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again
'cause when I'm wrapped up in your arms
Nothing else can touch me
What a wonderful way to recharge
I feel like I can breathe again
You keep me flying You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again
Who can embrace my fragility...
nah, who can accept my flaws...
only He can totally do that. cos He can be so forgiving and make me whole again.
i cannot tell u or speak up why this is happening, cos the causes are a handful.
they are silly though.
i cannot comprehend also why i did the things i had done.
what's the purpose?
What is it i'm trying to achieve.
sucha terrible phase, 'phase'.
this is my blog.
refer to the very first entry.
my very very first entry.
this is my blog that has prob been seen by many.
but i'm still who i am. writing my feelings. i dun need anyone to comment on it.
somebody change this lousy pacer.
time to buy a new one.
FFWD
sorry
is this a dejavu? 4ec-s....plus one devoleb.
sleep over it.
listen to wat the prince said ya and...
write the way the story has to be written.
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nvac camp
i'm worst than a jet-lagger.
today's exactly one week after day1 of nvac camp at NUS.
enjoyed myself thoroughly.
making friends with almost similar passion about helping volunteering for the disable, misfortunate..and sick.
thanks to JQ, JO, DAMON, JEFF, BURNING, TF, XIAOFEI,CUILIN for being such great councillors to me, han,zhiyun,xueping, joshua,kuoting, yenshan...
i'll take my time to send u all the pictures i took from day1 to 2...
i know han is kan cheong and wanna get hold of the CD..
chill la..
went to IMH. eye-opener. thought i wouldn't be freaked out. I did.
lost for words... over there are destitutes, young and old. some lived there for 2-3 decades cos their family abandoned them. Visited the ward tat NVAC does their v-work with so some of the patient do know them.they are stabilised.
Resorted to writing in chinese as i communicated with an elderly who was hard of hearing in the end.
IMH has 2000+ beds... there are 1900+ patients now...with about a thousand of them being long-stayer.
also
went to moral hme. for kids. poor kids. sometimes their ignorant really can be bliss.
but i'm not saying i wanna be like them. but i glad i can be amongst them and play with them. and enjoy their present.
some of them are bad at expressing themselves, so they get violent and stuff.but they are ok wan...
with the lack of sun, we experienced sentosa with sand, sea and rain....freaking cold...a lot of us were shivering and chattering... then FRIGHT night was excellent. even i had to exclaimed 3 times...
i must say i didn't regret going for this camp. met many pple. boys and girls. those whom i lost last contacted 3-4 yrs ago..to DHS seniors whom i nv saw since 1999...new school mates made, some buddies...yep..no regrets. What a memorable and exciting way to start my
TERTIARY EDUCATION.just finish burning CDs....gotta run. have been busy meeting friends...
i just drank last nite...to upz my gutz.
thanks evan and sharon..
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