compiled tots
last week, my friends asked if i wanna go chiong. i declined. then he said 'lai la..(come lah), yada yada yada...' then i tot 'could u respect my decision?' in the end, i didn't go. In the end, i took on the duty to go back sft to settle store and that's y i wasn't further persuaded to go. A friend should learn how to respect one another.there's a bash on NRB on the 28th AUG. iz NUSFASS. the first i went to chiong was last yr. in the same bash at centro. But i do wanna start sunday worship on sat. =) hee
thanks alice for telling me that.
last week, i took sat off. i took sat off knowing that there's gonna be 2 officers left. that left me a bit guilty. but i really wanna go. go where. go cell group. i felt that it was time that i shld go. to participate in their activities. I left knowin that a few of my spec had to stay cos there weren't enuff manpower. I appreciate df and dq's understanding. i went with a slightly heavy hard. I reached gordan's place and left gladly and at the same time, ashamed.
they were doing BS (bible study) and were sharing. they were dealing with some verses in 2TIM. Nowadays, whatever is being shared, i try to relate with what i am doing now. NS. and i think action must be done b4 i further disgrace the One i put my faith on for He has carried me so far w/o loving me less. yes, i thank Him. so i want to change...thru His power.. i believe i can cos i must. i wanna be in the ministry so i think i must learn how to conduct myself properly regardless where i am. by the holy spirit, i pray that I can learn to shed my bad side and learn His way and get closer to Him and i dun wan these to be just mere words.
we'll see
last time, my friend who went to log side asked me this qn twice ' have u become a hard man?'. he posed this qn to me at the end of ST. i said 'no'. the second time was after commissioning, when i was taking my first batch...i couldn't reply him immediately. So have i changed since 290104. yes.. i have. now iz time to correct e e way i think and e way to do the stuff so that the One up there will feel proud of me.
yesterday, oscar charlie and encik + some others did their ritual for seventh month. I wondered if we are the only coy who is doing this. sigh. I wanted to pray for them...together with des, he turned around instead. did i do anything wrong? well, i prayed for them hoping that they will see the light soon. I further convinced myself that i am far far away from God...i dun even noe His words clearly, i cannot tell pple that we, christians, can hold ungodly stuff or not. should we? i took the incense sticks in the end.
tmr,new encik is coming. i hope he can learn the rope fast. he needs to. or else during oscar charlie leaves, after encik leaves, it'll be me....ME?? nope, God WILL be with me. =) yay!!! df, help leh...hope u can adapt some of my idiosyncrasies. yeah. really looking fwd to work with you. working with des has been very enriching. thanks bro!des, i really really hope u can go back to Him. read.. yes, go read the bible. read ephesian and the book after roman..as a brother-in-christ, i hope u read this blog. i hope u put His words into practise. i'm nt anywhere near pious...but i hope u can run back to Him once again.
thanks for the faith you (des)have in the 3 of us.
got news from vic. he said he got an assignment on the day when we are supposed to hold a farewell dinner for zj. i dunno what the outcome will be. hai....shao le ni, feelin jiu different le. but ruo yao accomodate everyone, zhen de bu jian dan.
this morning, i addressed the rec w regards to their ippt result. i tot a lot about what and how i was to say. i took a lot of effort. but i think it pulled thru.
a few days ago, i got a news fr fishybone. she told me portugal likes another person. that was a relief cos honestly speaking, priority for bgr dropped after an incident.
teach me and guide me lord to refrain myself from spewing vulgarities and developed thoughts that dun glorify u. let me not fall into temptations- lust, greed, selfishness.
teach me to love and to accept one and all. teach me Your way. let my heart be receptive to You and your Words and cast away all infiltration of the evil ones.
I thank You for the succesful ops that gab's mum had.
I thank You for the successful application of alvin's assistance plan.
planning to watch MAMA MIA. sheesh. may be watching with my colleague. yeah. he's my future PS. he's into music as well. He's danial. I hope we can work well.
also, for those who aren't informed. i passed my advance theory test. now, can focus on driving lessons. Praise God. =)
God bless u
some of us
(L to R)daryl desmond hamid me hisham whyeleong gurdev. a fraction of those who made the post-dining-in game a success.
dining-in
coming home at such an hour - 0240hr. if not for my encik who drove me home; if not for the dining-in at suntec and oscar charlie had to be i/c for entertainment; if not for those unruly pple whom we usually associate them with gentlemenly behaviours, integrity. sadly.., those sportsmanship, integrity, maturity we associate em with were merely thriving thinly just now in the arena. yes, they wanna win. win with pride la. afterall, we did those stores with pride, we organised these games with pride. so wth....wah kao.play with some bit of pride. u call yourself commanders. bullshit. getting recruits to play would probably be easier. c'mon! dun u think b4 we can lead other...u must be someone who can follow instructions. y do u have to use underhand method to win...like when instructions already said only 10 men were allowed, u get somemore buggers to help pull the rope for the tug-of-war....i'm not trying to be mean. neither am i stirring. i'm just speaking my mind. what kind of behaviour man.......cmi.
just now i was at suntec. yesterday i was at suntec, the day b4 when i supposed to have off-in-lieu, i was also at suntec...iz ok la...my oscar charlie mah...ok nvm...this is a dining-in at suntec ballroom to mark the merger of 9th div and infantry....no more is there an infantry formation. iz now re-termed as 9th-div-infantry. yep...
i saw how terrible it is when i was the vice-chairperson for my 51/03 commissioning ball. pple show their selfish side. this time, my sunray faced a lot of problems. he's robin hood's prey man. he needs to get away soon....sunray's arrow getting bigger by the months. first it's at the mess for some end of yr thingy, then he had to do CO's evening...school lvl at the parade sq..yesterday...he was part of another big shit...a milestone for the infantry family- he's the in charge for post-dining-in entertainment.this time iz formation lvl.considered getting him to be parade commander during national day?
i'm his 2ic to be....i've seen how the previous 2 had worked with him. they are good. they can talk/relate to him pretty well. they support him. he has idiosyncratic behavior. he thinks he prints money. nah. shan't be too mean. he does that out of good will but i believe he is overdoing it. to the extent of being taken for granted.
to my knowledge, there are senior commanders and i'm referring to maj and above...those big f*** were asking for discount for the dining-in they were involved. they were v. reluntant to pay...kaoz...u all are regular...should expect all this wayang shit and formality lor....oh please....get hold of yourself.....$90 outta of how many thousands u earn monthly....think crab very big meh. earn respect man.
is tat the idea of work hard; play hard???
how do u explain the 3 bums on my dancer's head. simply childish...commander?? well well well...i seem to be critisizing myself as i'm part of the officer corp. am i like this now?
ALSO...i dun understand why..he wants the limelight. i understand he's the chairperson..he has the authority to make changes to our plan...but just look at the time!! it's 4-5hrs b4 the real thing. how to change? can he understand how groudmen feel. he always gives constructive ideas but too late lar sir...too late.make us fed-up only.
so in the end..when this function is supposed to end at 2300....the curtain closed at 0020 and i did store...moved here and there..i got home at 0240...online at 0320...now..the time is 0603...later 0700..i have
ANOTHER TASKING..oic pasir ris for enlistment.
life as an officer at bmtc.
living life like a recruit.
i shall end my ranting here...more to come..just no time. that's how dumbo signs off..
dum dum
God bless.
fieldcamp bore
finally, i'm back on blog...finally. today's the 5th day of fieldcamp. nothingy very dua zong happened. 2 more days b4 it ends. then after that...one day off but on that day i have to go suntec to get busy for infantry dining on the 18th. then on the 19th got enlistment tasking. sianz.got something to learn from the specs and des who are ord-ing.
i have also been observing hoe desmond reacts to situations and incidents...i'm not attempting to emulate me. i find him good at settling issues. at least from mty pt of view. he manages his pple well. i see the way he reacts when the medic didn't follow the tonner back. how he shook his head slightly. why? sunlight has to fetch that bugger in site. hmm...human error.
then being very bad at navigation...i didn't actually seriously truly know that we took the wrong route during route march. sigh. why huh. calvin oso confesses that he not zai. what's wrong man. luckily we have dq to depend on. since the prismatic compass course...i noe that my navigation cmi. who says that man has a better sense of direction than his counterpart.
that night i turned out the coy at midnight. thursday night. b4 that share a bit of ghost stories....but not as whack as how des, tay, whyeleong they all shared with their pl.
toh oso not bad. his personel experiences are sufficient!!
going back to the tonner. staying over at the camp site tonight.
the no of des's working day is countable liao.
i rmb the first time i did my demonstration, one of the lao jiao spec volunteered. he did an extremely good job. well, he's lao jiao. will all lao jiao be lidat...we will see cos for this fieldcamp, the mario brothers weren't impressive.
hafen read newspaper.
day1offc
iz day 1 of fieldcamp. my first proper wan n des's last wan. i respect him. even though we hafen been worked for long but i think i know him well enuff to comment that he is indeed very very encouraging and also with his jovial outlook and character, he allows me to share with ease.
well..now.i perceive that the ord symptoms are there...cannot blame him. but he still works. that's work. i have still alot to learn from this brudder.
just moments ago, the tot of how imperfection Man is.
How easy is it for Man to fall into trap set up by the dark.
Iz only by faith, thru God that we can overcome all temptations.
LUST, GREED, VULGARITY...
aiyoh...very jialat.
i was labelled the bastard PC a month ago...now..i just cannot play that role (properly).
u see how i turned them out at 2330hr...how i pumped em during admin hours..how i picked on lil' things on them so as to tekan them...
kaoz.
i hafen the time to read newspaper. One yr from now, i'll be in school. I'll be studying. I'll be making frens. not like now. i'm in tekong. i'm teaching recs. i'm tekaning them.
cannot fathom how 'soft' saf is becoming. serious. just a yr ago, we were treated worst than dirt..worst than grass..in the end, we managed to get out of the shithole..but now, we must follow guidelines when we treat them to pushing-up...watz de pt then. every mother son can do them...no -kick. but off course there are some who simply cmi.
think i'm blogging super slow today. y? no inspiration? dunno.
poor des had to book in yesterday for DOO duty. i hate duty. but iz responsibility.
sigh. i sometime cannot understand how pck thinks...i dun really wanna care but since i'm his 2ic-to-be, his stand-in when he goes on course in oct...i have to.
today we are supposed to have imt demonstration for 2PS. in the end also dun have.
now busy with inf dining in.
also i'm tasked to do OIC for enlistment at Pasir Ris the following day. extra job. what for? learning? perhaps. blessing in disguise...must be. rmb? His plan?
also....i'm seriously hoping desmundo goes to church soon. he buys wow worship.
but iz time to go back, need to, have to.
it takes courage to go back esp after u backslide. i backslided. thank God i went back.
DUMBO
THAT'S ME.
if u still dunno who sent u the address
the guy above did.
anyway, i like this pic. it's cool.
taken on my 20th bday by my sis.
Ocean's
i like ocean's
咻咻咻
攝氏三十五度 我不再回顧
想你在他的懷裏 應該幸福我該祝福
冷得我想哭 不能哭
傻到什麼程度 我心裏有數
最後一口啤酒無所謂 酸或苦能笑著送你走
就滿足 很滿足
看著天上烏雲 滿滿 排山倒海
這夏季第一場雨 迎面而來當
結局不能改 我又何必躲開
沒什麼值得大驚小怪 就淋個痛快
聽風 咻咻咻 嘲笑我的愛就像感情的備胎
只在旁邊喝采
你別問why why why我一直都在
你有很好的未來 再痛我也說all right
當風 咻咻咻 送走我的愛街邊路燈一整排
低著頭 為誰(無奈)默哀
是天在cry cry cry我的笑還在有天他不能依賴
你懷念我外套口袋告訴我
我隨時stand by
ndp's over. the patriotism soars aft e parade. always.
this's the first time i watch the parade since 2002. yep.
focus of the parade is diff..being who i am now, i'm more keen on the parade command at the start..
think the celebration is done very nicely. traditional songs became more hip. that's good.
getting inline with the younger generation.
well, many of us were actually focusing on pm goh. this's his last parade. must be very emotional for him.
as an individual, who has experience and enjoy the effort of the old guards and the 2G...i thank him.
most significantly was during the 97 asian economic crisis and also during the SAR outbreak.
now, the new pm's shall face challenges (definitely) but now, terrorism would be smth intricate to deal with, alongside the sino-relationship. still wondering his private trip to tw last month was right not.
nvm, shan't meddle with politics. hmm....
i'm gonna be away for fieldcamp...my first proper fieldcamp.gotta pack it up and go..take my ferry and to my beloved tekong..
happy nat day
hey good afternn...i had the luxury of sleeping till noon today. if not for the phone call i received, i would still be asleep. When was the last time i can sleep till such an hour. ****blur look****..
well i was on the phone with my buddy last nite. thanks for the time boy. that actually stopped me from blogging. but it was good thrashing-out session.
just wanna share with u pple (exclusively to those who got hold of this page)...
perhaps u wanna to noe why this exclusiveness. I felt more comfortable sharing u all...a bit of me is afraid of offending too many pple. u all would probably noe the extensiveness of my network and some portions of it are just trivial wans.
how wrong i was to think that there were mere coincidences in this world. now, i feel that those coincidences are god's plan. nicely crafted. wouldn't want to preach a sermon (oops..i mean message in this blog or else my audience would decline!) like last sat, eileen and ed actually planned to go ms to catch up over a drink or two, but things turned out that there was poor response and it was cancelled. The alt plan was to chill at boat quay but then eileen was tired so then again...it was called off..i didn't meet either of them. i didn't drink. this goes in line with my resolution of minimal drinking...why should we drink?
" The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraf; hatred, discord, jealousy, gfits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy;
drunkenness, orgies, and the like...."
from a famous book
so there, i'm driven by the fact that i'm a believer of my faith so i think it's very unhealthy for one to indulge in drinking and/or also to drink for no reason. Wouldn't a ice-lemon tea be juz as good...
n on sunday...i came up with another stunt. not exactly lah...hear my explanation. i tot it'll be marvellous to just spend my time at church and w e young adults(YA).i nv had the luxury of time on sundays (since 230103). i had to rush off aft church cos i had to bookin..but yesterday..i spent the entire afternn with my friends from church and didn't turn up for a gathering at sunset bay...millionz apologies to my fellow foxtroters.
and guess what!!! i cannot go for the YA retreat this thursday till sat....cos i have fieldcamp. suxs. I missed the youth camp in june, cannot go for cell group (CG) on fridays..n now i hv to miss the retreat. I would prob asked for leave u noe..but there's more shit and what i usually termed as responsibilities (aiyah...depends on my mood lah...but iz just work...ey...how about >present work) tasked upon me for the months to come...my dear des is ORD-ing soon...(congrats boy, u have seen enuff of this org). i got to know about the audition for xmas carolling organised by convenant presbyterian church (cpc)..i hope i can join them this xmas...iz time to do smth for the church in glory for the one i believe. well, i really hope and pray that i can...cos i doubt i'll join vjchoir (i'm too old for them); neither am i singing for vc (ain't got the cash to buy the blazer, the voice to match their singing) for carolling...
nv understooded why zy, jac and my vjchoir jr had to forsake vjchoir on the eve of xmas and xmas morning to go sing for church. i even went to the extent of questioning their commitment twds the choir..come to think about it..i feel a lil' sorry. cos now i understand. the fervour. the passion to serve.
watched farenheit 911 with andrew in the yday evening. good show. reflective. the 1st qn i tot at the beginning of Operation Freedom: 'where the hell is wmd????' and ' why iraq and not al-qaeda ?'
go watch tat film...it shows the incapabilities of prez bush.
had intentions to watch i,robot..but bad slot....wanna watch note-book but wrong companion...watched village the day b4. it was a good show ($7.50 outta $8.50)...
not watching flying dagger.
are u all watching pre vs alien? just like fred vs jason.....
iz time i really leave bgr in the hands of the one up there.
i thank juliana and victor, yes, for quality conversations.
gone were the days when i spend hours with 'em' joking,eating,eating,talking,eating,bbq-ing, laughing and SINGING.
happy 39th bday spore
may God continue to protect this nation. May He also see that the transition of leadership be as smooth as possible. May the authority walk in humility and hope they continue to make firm, fair, and correct decisions.
God bless PM LEE H.L
God bless you (too)
gush of tots
so soon after dumbo wrote his entry, he shall carry on his second. as u can see...pple tend to be enthusiastic at the start and towards the end of whateva they do, they will seldom accomplish/complete it whole-heartedly.
just now was the second time i met up my college frens for the second bday dinner at heeren.
2 of my friends who enlisted the same period as i do are feeling the ord mood...saying that they wanna hand over their work to their understudy..serve liao then FO..
true la, i can relate to that...but why izzit that u must say it out...as in..dun u feel that sense of pride and responsibilities u have been given? Imagine this country w/o conscription.sigh. pathetic. nvm
i'm not saying that i'm fantastic. i do have issue with this organisation which sometimes gets definition mixed up...
Words like 'optional' - 'compulsory', 'professionalism' - 'flip-flap-flop-do-re-mee'
nvm. next topic.
i'm drifting apart from my group of frens from college. last time we always hang out after choir...sure wan..w/o fail. we would always be cracking jokes, be there for one another there, encouraged each other during exam periods...but now we have set path on different routes in life. individual focus has changed. that's for sure...mine has differed quite a lot from them. Now, during gathering, i feel outta touch, outta place...well..wat more can i say. pple come and go...but truly thanks to juli..thanks for each and every conversations we shared over the yrs, the advices and yada yada...
just wanna end of by commenting that matter of the heart is very tricky. very tiring. very extra. sweet and sour. dun wanna blog it now...no pt. too long. bad at summarising.
dumbo has ended his performance...**claps**
God bless you
wth
goodness gracious. must be peer pressure. first it was the peeps from vjchoir then we have pple from friendster..(eh..u have blog??), then follow my des then dh had to follow. i suck at writing. i cannot express myself properly thru writing. and becos of that, i'm told to practise.
basically, now i wanna let u pple noe that whateva i write here is how i am feeling at that point when i'm penning my thoughts...no hard-feelings..taz de idea of a blog aint it. i xpress what i wanna xpress...if u have issue w that..then skip that particular portion/part/phrase/paragraph...SIMPLE!?
Also, i wanna to warn u all first...my english suck.
i'm writing my first blog. like thanks...testing 1 2 3 .we shall see when's my next entry
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