..the beads and p*sses of dumbo-no-more: January 2006

emotional side of me (these days)

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i do tear easily these days.
when i watched narnia..i had to control my tear glands.
when i watched geisha..i did not control my tear glands well.
when i watched i not stoopid too... my tear glands took control.

what's with me these days?
yar, could be the new yr.

yar...maybe..hcny

do attempt

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There's a young boy who loves to climb trees.
One day, he slipped and fell to the ground while attempting to climb one.
Later that day, he was taking a bath and saw a big bruise at his elbow. He said to his dad

"I must have hurt myself when i fell in the afternoon,"

Qn: When did the boy say he hurt himself?

ANYONE?

What do u call someone who is on off?

ANY TAKER?

busier term

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This semester is definitely busier than the last. It can be simply psychological or as a-matter-of-fact.Although school ends before 2pm and 10am on Thursday and Friday respectively, I still feel tired. could be the travelling.

This semester has more tutorials to handle than the last.I feel stretched at times and I dunno why. I’m not stressed entirely. No need to be. I’m doing readings but sadly not for my SW modules of which one of them is very boring (Community work and group work). I dunno why. I SW major. I dun want to screw them up. Sadly, they are essential modules that are not very appealing.
In fact, I am beginning to enjoy my English exposure. I like learning what is taught in class. Many new and helpful terms and its ambiguity also seem to make the module likeable. The lecturer, Dr. A, is humorous and I guess that’s why I dun dread attending her afternn lecture from 2-4 on Monday.
One other module I’m taking is pah sa Thay (Thai language). Thank goodness I am having an enjoyable time picking it up With some background knowledge and an awesome experience in Thailand last year does make learning easier. The class’s small…4 guys and 8-9 girls. I’m actually excited learning. And I do hope the module gets interesting and even more engaging as time passes by. Right now, all except one can speak w/o referring to the text book.Oh well, I think I can consider taking more Thai modules than Malay if I’m convicted to do so.

I was pleasantly surprised that many of those who take Thai are Christians from other churches who are keen on doing mission work in The Land of Smile. I didn’t confess that it was one of my reasons and I thought it was not very nice to tell them that.It is exciting to see that God allows such module to exist in the modular option list in NUS; unlike NTU n SMU. This, I see, is an avenue to engage Thai with ease when we meet them there.In just two days, I’ve come to realize that not just in SW, but in Thai class too, where a large proportion is Christians. I met a Campus Crusade guy for lunch for he wanted to meet me as I indicated that I wanted to know more about DVC from them. And he told me that the number of guys in CC is less than 50. very low, very low indeed.

At a spur of a moment, I decided to catch Memoirs of a Geisha. I enjoyed it very much.It is a must-watch for Jap studies students. The movie captured the change/transition of a pre-war Japan to a post-war Japan and its effect. How the status of a geisha took a tumble. True blue Geishas were elegant and cultured; they know how to dance and also to captivate the audiences with entrapping elegance and beauty. I think I had attended a crash course on the history of Geisha.

Qns:
A fancies B
C fancies B
A and C are buddies
C saved A's life before.
If u were A, would u let C have B?
If i were A, i prob let C have B. cos i owe my life to C.

A fancies B
C fancies B
A and C are buddies
C saved A's life before.
Knowing that B fancies A as well and if u were A,
would u let C have B?

If i were A, i would still let C have B. cos i owe my life to C.

A fancies B
B fancies A but A doesn't know that.
B was caught on bed with stranger by A
If u were A, would u
1. bash up stranger
2. run away outta shame and guilt cos u felt u fail to protect and secure B
3. detest B thereafter
4. All of the above...
5. None of the above.
If i were A, I prob choose......

My train journey (BV station to tampines) is coming to an end…I think I’ll write another time.

lost n found

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What can be !#$%^&* when I realised, only when I boarded the east-bound train from BVstation, that my matriculation card which I thought would nv appear again, was reported to be found by the !##$$$$$$$%^* librarian who said that if i dun collect the card personally today, he wouldn't know where the card would be if I were to collect it tmr. (YES!a v long statement. deliberately wan)

What kinda of an attitude is that?
so if i really cannot find my card...i've witness to say that he was the last person to handle the card and refuse to return to the rightful owner the day later.
first rant of 2006
thankful though

time of sharing

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before i launch into my blog, i like to introduce to u this website (thanks ting) http://ecards.emicmg.com/soldierStory/relaunch.html#

above is a testimony of a US soldier who was sent to Iraq and how a hymn inspired and sustained him as he serve his duty away from home, away from wife wife and children. How through difficult time like this that he tapped about the words of " IN CHRIST ALONE" and received strength and consolation from the God of the Most High.

yday during CG, enoch led us through discussions on topics like meditation and deliverance. He told us there're 4 types of Christian meditation and we tried out 2. Would like to share what my experience and what i got outta it when we did the one which we try to be 'in the Scripture'.

He read the passage about Peter walking on water... I was like an observer, picturing the scenerio.
when the boat that the disciples are on was battered by the waves...i compare it to a crisis.
when Jesus went out to them in the night, walkin on the lake - it's like in the midst of crisis, we see Jesus from afar...in the storm, tog with us...it's in the dark in the ocean...do you think one can see clearly?
This incident serve also to trust in Jesus who appeared to them when they are facing disappointments and confusion, despair and tension. Now, Peter was summoned to go to Jesus. Peter's step of faith outta' confort zone (boat...he is safer in the boat rather than anywhere else at that moment so we think) is like us trusting in Jesus in times of need.
'But when he saw the wind, he was afraid' - the wind is like another attack or setback even when one face has ALREADY made the step of trust in God.
However when Peter called out to Jesus to save him, Jesus IMMEDIATELY pulled him to safety.

wat i want to highlight is that even though u can still be faithful and look upwards in times difficulties, there is still the wind around to distract you. What would u do? Will u give up? Will u forget that ultimately u are called by Jesus to come to Him in the first place when u are faced with problems? Peter didn't forget about Jesus. He cried out help and help he received!

Are u facing any crisis or sort now?
What's your way out?

Enoch told me there are infact many spiritual giant who faced a drought in their spiritual life before they become who they have become in the end.
He shared with me about "DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL". The dark night of the soul is a terrible time, the darkest, a period in which God and meaning are absent. If you can imagine the worst despair, the kind which drives some to take their own lives, you are on the right track. It can be triggered by life events, by the death of a loved one, a betrayal, a reversal of fortune, a job loss, a cut-off of relations among family members, the diagnosis of a terminal illness, or simply a loss of meaning and an absence of zest for life (Rev Linda Hoddy, 2003).

I think Job in the bible experienced smth like that.
"DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL" is the writings of St. John of the Cross in the late 16th c. He wrote this in a prison cell to escape to the Lord whom He trust to be there even though He feels nothing, sense nothing....

darknightofthesoul

So dark the night! At rest
And hushed my house, I went with no one knowing
Upon a lover’s quest
-Ah the sheer grace! – so blest
My eager heart with love aflame and glowing.
In darkness, hid from sight
I went by secret ladder safe and sure

-Ah grace of sheer delight! –

so softly veiled by night,

hushed now my house, in darkness and secure.

Hidden in that glad night,

Regarding nothing as I stole away,

No one to see my flight,

No other guide or light

Save one that in my heart burned bright as day.

Surer than noonday sun,

Guiding me from the start this radiant light

Led me to that dear One

Waiting for me, well-known,

Somewhere apart where no one came in sight.

Dark of the night, my guide,

Fairer by far than dawn when stars grow dim!

Night that has unified

The Lover and the Bride,

Transforming the Beloved into him.

There on my flowered breast

That none but he might ever own or keep,

He stayed, sinking to rest,

And softly I caressed

My Love while cedars gently fanned his sleep.

Breeze from the turret blew

Ruffling his hair. Then with his tranquil hand

Wounding my neck, I knew

Nothing: my senses flew

At touch of peace too deep to understand.

Forgetting all, my quest

Ended, I stayed lost to myself at last.

All ceased: my face was pressed

Upon my Love, at rest,

With all my cares among the lilies cast.

The past 2 worships i had on Sundays have songs that struck me.

read the lyrics:

"in the battles Lord, You are my peace.

When I'm broken Lord, You are my strength.......

..You're my joy, my song in the night..."

-PRAISE TO THE LORD

"Thank you Lord for the trials that come my way.

in that way i can grow each day as i let You lead.

And i thank you, Lord for the patience those trials bring

in theat process of growing I can learn to care.

But it goes against the way i am

to put my human naure down

and let the Spirit take control of all I do

'Cause when those trials come

My human nature shouts the thing to do

And God soft prompting can be easily ignored

But I thank you Lord, with each trial I feel inside

That you' re there to help lead and guide me away from wrong

'Cause You promised, Lord that with every testing

That Your way of escaping's easier to bear

Yes, I thank you Lord

for the victory that growing brings

In surrender of everything life is so worthwhile

And i thank you Lord that when everything's put in place

Out in front i can see Your face

and it's there You belong"

-Thank You Lord

To all my Christian brothers and sisters...

take comfort that He has paid it all. Dun let each drip of blood from His nail-pierced hands go to waste.

To all my friends who aren't believers of my God...

thank you for reading.

madness

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When u have a glass half-filled with water.

would ur reaction be that it is half-emptied?
would it be half-filled?
that seems to reflect whether or not u are a pessimist or optimist.

now, assuming that the half-filled/half-emptied glass is water represent a problem/crisis/issue.
and u want it to be filled up.

u pray that things would turn out better/normal (that's represented by a glass of water)
u pray for deliverance.
now, it is to see if there's anyone out there to re-fill the glass.
what would happen if no one refills the glass even when all the water has evaporated.

how would u view this?
would it be that u aren't delivered?
then, would the glass be a glass...

thinking too much

This is done in the midst of my enjoyable singlehood. Not to be taken as seriously as the one about Big Bird which is just below this.

Kindness

Kindness is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You want someone who will go through everything with you - the best moments and the worst, and all of those other moments in between. You love to be able to say anything to your partner, and have them say anything to you. You are able to be extremely close with your partner for that reason.

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anyway, i hafen been to school for two whole days.
quite like that.
skipped yday lecture... but have been doing readings...finally have read what i have to... gonna start with NTS and LL.

happened to just composed a tune ...but no lyrics yet...who wants to joint-compose my no4 composition?

BIG BIRD I AM

Big Bird
You scored 79% Organization, 53% abstract, and 71% extroverted!

This test measured 3 variables.

First, this test measured how organized you are. Some muppets like Cookie Monster make big messes, while others like Bert are quite anal about things being clean.

Second, this test measured if you prefer a concrete or an abstract viewpoint. For the purposes of this test, concrete people are considered to gravitate more to mathematical and logical approaches, whereas abstract people are more the dreamers and artistic type.

Third, this test measured if you are more of an introvert or an extrovert. By definition, an introvert concentrates more on herself and an extrovert focuses more on others. In this test an introvert was somebody that either tends to spend more time alone or thinks more about herself.

You are very organized, both concrete and abstract, and more extroverted.

Here is why are you Big Bird.

You are both very organized. You almost always know where your belongings are and you prefer things neat. You may even enjoy cleaning and find it therapeutic. Big Bird is never sloppy and always under control... pretty good for a 6 year old bird living without a family.

You both are sometimes concrete and sometimes abstract thinkers. Big Bird can be quite dreamy at times and has no problem using his imagination. At the same time he is also practical and can be methodical in his search for answers to questions. You have a good balance in your life. You know when to be logical at times, but you also aren't afraid to explore your dreams and desires... within limits of course.

You are both extroverts. Big Bird gets along with everyone. He makes friends easily and always has a positive attitude. You definitely enjoy the company of others, and you don't have problems meeting new people... in fact you probably look forward to it. You are willing to take charge when necessary or work as part of a team.

The other possible characters are
Oscar the Grouch
Bert
Snuffleupagus
Ernie
Elmo
Kermit the Frog
Grover
Cookie Monster
Guy Smiley
The Count

If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also if you want to tell me your favorite Sesame Street character, I can total them up and post them here. Perhaps your choice will win!

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 96% on Organization

You scored higher than 59% on concrete-abstra

You scored higher than 74% on intro-extrovert

Link: The Your SESAME STREET Persona Test written by greencowsgomoo on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

morning rant

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today is the first time this yr i woke up (unwillingly) at 7.30am.
I DUN LIKE IT. I AM SO FREAKING TIRED......i slept threeish last night...
as much as i want to be consistent in my work and readings... i hope the job i that i hope to get doesn't expend ALL of my energy...
i'm gonna so dread sw2104 tutorial...where got tutorial write 1000 and 2000 words report wan!!!

gonna dead easier when i have 3 days of 8am lectures to go to on tues, thurs and fri...

I've been sounding very 'correct' and 'boring' in my posts recently.

I NEED MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

work

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applied for work
life bookshop
pay rate: unknown...
i told them i'm free on tues aft, thur aft, fri aft, sat aft...sun aft..
yea yeah...
so outta7 days...i left out 2 days...
ya...i omitted them!!! omg!!!!!!!!

SUNnyDAY!!

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Attendence:
sunshine 2/14

2nd day of bright sunshine. blue sky. white clouds. wake pass HDB flats...and lOOk UP!! u see bamboos and bamboos of laundries...
everyone is happy to be in the light.
and wherever there is light, darkness will NV stand a chance to exist.
Light of the world...!!!

i am so gonna make use of this great opportunity to get myself tanned.
choosing btw swimming or blading.....swimming or blading...swimming or blading...

how can one decide to stay indoor on such a wonderful day...
a day that the Lord made!!

rainy daysss

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it's another wet day.
unlike some of my frens, i do enjoy rain. at least for now. Although it causes inconvenience and perhaps resulting some having to wear damp socks in socked shoes, I like the chill and cold wind; the sounds of splish and splashing; and sometimes the waves formed by fast-travelling vehicles (i wonder why the hurry?!)
i like the softness of the rain droplets when it touches my skin. Cooling and refreshing. juz afraid that my gel-ed up hair will get sticky at the end of the day + cmi hairstyle. yes, will's vain. what to do.
I hope it'll just rain and rain and rain and rain....until 3 days b4 CNY... yea...that'll be nice....and we will have warm, bright, sunny, happy chinese new yr...

I've been seeing more people, esp students wearing long sleeve tops to school. Who had expected the cool monsoon season is late for one month (exactly)? Perhaps tat's what happened every nov-jan...nothing significant. then again, i'm yr1. i'm new to NUS from jan-jul...

I must say this rainy season has been the coldest i've known so far in spore. Best attire i think for the season would be SAF long 4. surely very comfortable...haha...someone's actually thinking of wearing boots to skool.

oh ya ... introductory lectures are boring.

know your pronouns

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i got this urge to blog.
i feel so unjust for u.
esp after seeing 'it'.

do u feel relieved?
go and smell the sweet chilly breeze...makes u feel better...

He loves u

and yes...i saw 'someone' else's blog : rmb men can fail and disappoint u, 'He' will not.

I spoke to her and she spoke words of wisdom.

I continously ask Him to shape me into someone with Christ-like character.

i am appreciated. not a pest or irritant ( maybe to u, i am ...interesting and weird fren...)

yes... added confusion is pointless. thank goodness i didn't let the cat outta the bag or else it'll just makes things worse.

report on TMT

Thank God that I met my aims of the trip. I had personel time with God, reflecting how my 2005 was, saw how wonderfully God is working with and through the Christian brothers and sisters in Thailand and to finally experience missions.

God’s continuous protection and grace had kept all of us safe and sound. That helped a lot especially when I was made the Safety and Security i/c. He was truly amazing how many of us, especially the first timers who grew spiritually during this trip. Furthermore, I have to thank God for He has given such approachable and forthcoming youths in my team who are always keeping a lookout for everyone. They are sensible and alert. Considering we did not have sufficient preparation before the trip, the team was still able to do His work which He prepared in advance. True to His promises, he uses what we have to complete His work. Moreover, the team members were supportive. We really bonded and enjoyed each others company.

What was me with the deepest impression was the fact that I was appointed to share the gospel with the local youths who are yet believers. I was told how to do it using Romans 6:23 “For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Also, I was told to do the altar call.
I was not trained and it took me by surprise entirely. And through my inadequacy, He showed his power and glory through me. I was really humbled and touched by Him throughout this experience where one soul was saved. Praise the Lord!

I thought i become a role model for one of my brothers who really had a harder time bonding with us. Being a new member of the covenant family he had to work with us so closely in such a short time is a challenge and as we know God has His purpose of placing pple in each others life, i strongly felt that i was like a 'mentor' to him. As crazy as i think I am, vic actually asked me if pastoral care was my niche and that worship and music was secondary. As true as i am to myself, i love to talk to pple who have difficulties of many sorts..and caring for them...

I also got to make some new thai frens who are extremenly friendly. from high school students, to tertiary lvl to brothers and sisters in inburi, singburi, thachang..there were mai, tkaidaw, chicken, bom, lek, puy, teek, tong and many mores... as much as God has created a deep impression of us towards the trip, we have also impacted each others life as well.

There are still many incidents that have left a deep impression in me. I thank Him for this divine opportunity to serve Him in such a manner.

Just to also share with you that one of the reason why I chose Thai language instead of appealing for malay is that i can possibly help out in future TMTs...and that was what P.Ed said.haha...

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on the way to thailand....WE WERE SO EXCITED!!!! and thanks for the blessings and prayers from the church...

glorious snapshot of the rays...awesome creation of God. We were at Chao Phraya River on the second day for Latio Divina and many of us were touched by the presence of the Spirit...

GUYS. keith's taking the pic

our cheperon..esther and abel

GIRLs

abel and esther with the older YAs

the 3 oldest participants...21 21 19...

group bonding at inburi church

I am humbled and honoured when I was appointed to share God's word and the Good News with the youth....TONG who is 16 was a tremendous help with the translation... =)

sue, auntie anong (rev's ek's wife) arunee...they were a great help...one way or another... the children helped me with the gospel translation for tong and I and anong had to wake up to help out for breakfast prep...

at thachang...some of the kids from wai yat soi village responded to our invitation and went to the evangelistic event. Praise God!!

first encounter with the wai yat soi kids....u see their innocent simplicity and sweet smiles...

tkaidaw and I. She's a bible college student. enjoys working with children and youth... Jean and i was appaled when she shared with us her testimony...

Paeng and KYE...ahem

before we left inburi high school.. all of us had most fun there. a picture with 2 staff.. ask the boys who are all younger than me..."KKKKKYE!! NNNNUT!! DEEEEE!! CAAAALEB!! DRRRREW!!!...............i love you!!"

Mai from inburi high school. age 17...she's in some dance club..and we happened to meet each other in the place where they were practising their dance. I joined in, for fun.