Well. today i see the sun and rain coming tog. it was raining when the sun was still shining. Each of them wanting their own ways... what happens next. Pple fall sick. (is this smth ur mama or papa tell u? this kind of weather...very easy fall sick)
i slept an additional 3hrs when i didn't need to. Sorta had the i want to sleep till the cows come home... sleep like there's no tmr...sleep till my troubles all melt away... but at the end of the day (1230hrs) i woke up after a dream... a better dream compared to a nightmare on monday...yah, i had a nightmare which 我对不起一个我爱的人。。。total denial...kept shaking my head when i told myself it is not true; it was only a blardy nightmare.
i dun wanna bully u , nether do i want to take advantage of u... but how do one understand when information(classified, secrets) is not told. cannot be told would be better termed i guess. looping the two songs......reminding myself what u had said. reminding myself of statements in "in love with u", "暖暖”，"天天夜夜“…
*keeping a distance... one arm's length...or one heart's length...?" what am i talking about...
I didn’t know I go thru the ‘time of the month’ that the counterpart species go thru. Mine’s irregular.
It doesn’t help when things are not certain and inevitable.
This morning I had two things on my mind:
I prayed that my thai oral will be fine and that grace and I would be able to communicate and present properly whatever scenario tat was given to us. I prayed that I can be more relaxed and be patient. 手放开。不要强迫。。否则会被烦死的。。 not by MAN’s wisdom but by His grace. Who am I to instruct Him…though I can intercede. Whenever I ponder about future outcomes, I would worry excessively thus causing myself to lose conc on jesus.
And there is no time and space to worry… exam is around the corner.
8.45woke up ; 9 go school ; 1015 prac oral; 1220 oral exam; 1500 tea and counselling; 1600 tuition ; 2000 musical; 2330 beginning to study...
Stubborn lazy after questionnaires know more a lil Love (bring stlk and sblk thru)is God.
My reaction to " GST to be raised to 7%: PM Lee" over tv mobile was
" WHHHHHHHHATTTTT! up again!? why why why? bills, and tuition fees!!!! VERY big jump...2 %... WHATTTT!!! WHYYY!!! bad ... this is gonna be very bad!!...oh no... then how will the post-65 ers do....(prob nothing...).. AIYO ...how come lidat... LHH is both minister of $ abd PM...how come .... wp have good chance the next election..."
below is an excerpt from "Singapore to beef up 3 areas to help lower income groups" (another parliament update)
"So we have to be very very careful. Experiment, learn, modify as we go along. Don't go overboard with excessive welfare for the lower income, don't go overboard encouraging families to break up and to abandon their old folks. Don't over extend subsidies to people who are not poor. Once we've made a mistake, unwinding is impossible, because once people have been given welfare benefits, it becomes an entitlement, it's permanant, there'll be budget deficits, taxes will have to keep on going up and we'll be in a Scandanavian situation," said Mr Lee."
below is an excerpt from the GST article:
This package will be weighted more to the middle and the low income groups, especially the elderly, and it will more than offset the GST increase. "It is not just an offset package to deal with the GST. It is a whole set of measures which we are taking in order to tilt the playing field in favour of the lower income group, which is what we have to add and tally in the balance, and my purpose is to help the lower income group. For the middle income, it will be generally about ok; for the higher income, I think the higher income should end up paying more overall. It's part of being one society. I'm not going to tax 15% on income tax, I'm not going to tax 25% from GST the way the Scandanavians do, but I have to make the adjustments of 2% which I think is fair and I think Singaporeans will support," said Mr Lee.
as for u, i so expect ur reaction......nvm...i still love them and i think i will neutralise ur vote. hahaha.... then hor...who knows...oppparty might up standard in 2010...i'll be working already and there will more issues which i will be concerned with.
by the way, i am in school. cos the central lib is opened from 1015pm to 0745am. hmmm.... and when i reached at 9pm, there is barely electrical socket left.... maintenence will be from 2130 to 2215... and since today is the first day the lib is opened for 24hrs, there will be a 'singapore sale' effect when everyone rushes in later to find spaces beside a socket...
i might be part of this party...i might not... but i wanna revised enough to feel satisfied this morning when i sleep at 4.5am.
i got to thank God for putting this desire to stay in school today! it's 0234hr and i'm at my fren's room at kent ridge hall...in his room, i saw his time table that reads " sw3209: 27mov mon evening"
stunned!!! super shocked!!! i tot it was on the 4th dec eve...exactly one week after the CORRECT date! what was i doing! see! God loves me so much that He got me to bunk over at my fren's place tonight SO THAT i can discover my grave mistake!! gotta adjust my study plan le!!!
i confess! i took this entire thing from my fren's blog! i was encouraged when i read his entries. thanks alvin.
everybody, it's exam craze now...smu, ntu, nus...yea...datelines should be almost completed... this is the time when most of us will be super stress (once again), will be distracted from God, from Jesus...but Jesus still want to be close to us. I cannot survive without knowing Jesus is far far far away from me...i know my dear Jesus loves me...and when i go about living my days putting Him aside do prick me...
He loves u too...all of u...
Sometimes, i think i am testing my faith on a large scale... test God, nah, i dun dare... He will win. Hands down. He deserves it.
Meantime, do take care of urself and i know u can do it, cos u have to...i will pray for u...and that one day u'll respond to Him
i would like to share with u who read my blog to know that Jesus has done it all. He has gone through so much hurt and sorrows just to see us reconcile with our Father.
"Dun lean on my understand"..."for His way is higher than all ours"... He calls me His fren, apart from Him, i can do nothing! His grace is stretched wide and far...even those who haven't yet accepted Him, he has allowed rain to pour on them as well...to enjoy His creations as well...
It rained in the afternoon. Downpour coupled with occasional strong winds. BRRRR… I was having a lecture on what structured family therapy is. We mentioned about conflict and how it can be useful to aid families and their problems. Conflict avoidance, in fact, might not help because conflict itself is not solved… and the underlying problem will be there.
I asked my tutor during the break whether she had encountered fierce conflict b4. with her head shaking, she said “ha!worse… what u see in the video (my lecturer showed us a video on some cases…) was quite bad…the dynamics in Singapore are different and there will always be families that like that when I go for my practicum…”
I dun like conflict. Scary.
My lecturer, who has been very inspiring, mentioned that as social worker graduates in the future, we ought not to call ourselves "the-rapist". be true to our profession. Yea…I agree =)
It rained this afternn… I felt so lazy and didn’t want to go for my thai lesson…but I persevered.
Pple, pls pray that God will grant me favour for my thai oral, test and exams… I need that. I can’t do it myself… there are so much to memorise… no more (thai) language next sem. NO MORE.
Thank God for the lovely warm sunshine that led me to the bus stop this morning.I had wanting to write about this since last week.Sporadic rainfalls has driven the irritating haze away. And the fact that I can once again see things at a distance is a blessing. Thank God.
Thank God for the lovely warm sunshine that has been shining into my life regardless what happens. I wanna give thanks to Him. He allows sh*t to happen to me … really, He’s not gonna remove the cold, bitter and cruel winter rain. Times like this, I know I can still call unto Him and depend on Him. And I thank the Spirit for prompting me to pray.
Thank God for the lovely warm sunshine that soft yet powerfully penetrated into the kingdom of darkness where things always seem so bleak yet it is my (our) choice to choose whether to follow the path that leads to the Creator.
Last night. Thank you so much for staying around to encourage me. Thank God for that. Last night. I had so much difficulty getting my thai homework done. I felt totally crap, not able to fathom why some others do not face so much difficulties while i do. Last night. I see that You bring pple to me… so when I prayed and seeked help,u gave me the name suddenly. Last night. I guess I was really stressed out by thai homework that I dreamt about it. During the 4th stage of my sleep, between 5-6am… I woke by realizing it wasn’t just a dream, it was nightmarish.
I thought I saw alphabets in thai…
This morning, I decided to give a miss to a thai lesson at 8am. I wouldn’t have enough sleep…needless to say mental preparation if I were to go for the lesson then and perform badly for a presentation immediately after that.
Next week, things would be different when I start my finals preparation and may God grant me more patience, self control and joy.
