Saturday, October 29, 2005

1st n 2nd x

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1st time:
driving a female fren
using my DBS credit card
at genki sushi at TM
meeting up with rui and yiling tog for a meal in 2006
going to cool bear workshop and get a bear
going down that narrow tm carpark way
speaking to jie for so long
2nd time:
scratching car
eating at genki

think God has done an amazing job on my dad

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

on the 26th...oct

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I'm 96% fine... the remainig 4%i dunno what.

last night was the first time my family prayed together. for my dad who is unwell too.

central library has been crowded. finding a socket for ur plug ain' ez

wo de xin jiu ru dao ge.
ting dao na qing shen xi yu
shi wo na wei fang xia de xin
huo shi wo bei aiqing yun huai le tou

fa sheng le shen me shi

how did it happen.
meet on birthday.
how ironic!
damn it.
WHY!

Monday, October 24, 2005

rest

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am feeling better.
if andrew hadn't tell me to stay hme and rest..i wouldn't be feeling what i'm feeling now.

and i think God sent his angel to take care of me when i slept last night.

we have work to do but
everyone needs to rest.

it's my fren's birthday in a few days
it's my another fren's birthday in another few more days

evan's effort

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thanks evan.

my body is crumbling into pieces...

Good Lord help me

Sunday, October 23, 2005

in sickness and in health...

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am a sick boy.

hoping to finish essay tonight.

thanks to my sis who taught me how to upload background song.
it's JJ's Sha Shi bi Ya de tian feng

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

be yourself. dun b bZbODY. mind UR own bZness

setting: SBS bus
time: at or about 2030hrs
parties involved: a b c d e and w
scenerio: a and a were drinking coke on the bus
bcd were talking aloud like they own the bus
bc teased a pair of tj students

by the w was feeling irritated by their unruly fup attitude.

Scene X
a, who drank coke, left his seat as he was arriving at his destination. w assumed a left his coke bottle behind for the bus driver to clear it for him. thus

w (to d) : i think u later (should) bring down the coke bottle that ur fren left it there,
d (acting blur): what? where?
bce leaned themselves closer to d to 'check it out'!

w: there?! i think your fren who is leaving forgot to take it. and ur other fren who (was) also drinking (pointing to the area where the coke bottle was) just now...rmb to take it down the bus hor.

d: why?

w: no very nice what. u all would be littering

d: litter, litter lor

w: well, i dunno la, but i think (it is) not very nice. up to u all. got to go.

Scene (X+1, at the rd junction where the bus was moving off from a halt)
-no conversation-

bcde pointed their middle finger at w while w was standing at the junction looking ignorant *act blur*

and in the end, w got music at home and was once again told to mind his own business.
off-duty policemen wouldn't careless....why should w?
then again, with policemen in their uniform around, would bcde did what they had done?
NO

at the end of the day.
w is a bzbodi unless being recognised as a responsible cvlian, say by the authority.

oh btw, with this i think we can might as well free the students from HAO GONG MIN (Good citizens) lessons in pri school and Civic and Moral Ed. in sec school. cos they are ptless.

REALLY ptless.
dun u think so? u teach them to be courteous (towards family members)...--- who does that?
u teach them to report any suspicion figures loitering around your area.--- u do that when they loiter AT your area, not around.
u teach them to help. to stand up for what is right.
arh....bullshit.
cos i also learn that u can break one chopstick and cannot break a bundle of them.
if w, in that instance, were to basked up...he is like a chopstick...so i suggest w to stop being a bzbodi and b like u (the reader)..........................and I ( w, the would-be bo-chupper)

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Monday, October 17, 2005

DONE DEAL

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IT'S FINALLY DONE!!!!
TIME TO BATHE AND SLEEP...

Friday, October 14, 2005

bipolarity

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Thank God tat He has allowed the dateline for my 2500 words essay dateline to be pushed 4 days later. Indeed, He provides a way out. Now, i think i can breathe easier.
Great is the Lord!
and i should be learn to be thankful for results i get in school cos no matter what He knows what is best for me. All sufficient one...

sunday floorball?
right now, i am going to complete my SW term paper.

tmr's VJ open house. i'm yr 5. i'm old already. no more fresh graduate. no more NSF looking back at college. now, an undergrad.

should i join VCF next sem?
should i go for an injection? i cannot take it anymore. these irritating mosquito bites thingy... 2 weeks plus le.
should i roller blade tmr?

guys, i'm going thru bipolar disorder starting from now.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

week forecast

this is part3...
i'm hoping to finish my SW essay by sat.
play floorball on sunday...
piah SS from monday to thurs cos submission is fri.
i'm _____ big time.
so that's my forecast for next week.
cool huhz.
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Wednesday, October 12, 2005

pt2

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it was part2 last night but it was till 2.45am. and i couldn't take it le so i went to sleep and
woke up real late today.
on the way to school but turned back at city hall, went tm to watch 40yrs old virgin, had lunch at phin restaurent and bought heart of worship cd. total expenditure: $30.
and i tell u retail therapy doesn't work on me

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

lack of sleep, pt1?

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i finally did it.
slept at 5.15am this morning when i decided enough was enough for my sw term paper.
slow la...cannot think. edit and reedit.
woke up at 6.16am. came to school. attended a useless psyche lect.
skipping MS lect. completed my 2 webcast.
tuition at 7pm..
prob jogging at 9.30pm
tv at 10pm.
mug all night long once again...

MUGGER

hve to.

God, how do i know i have surrendered everything to You?

oh well...lemme list some mind-blowing disasters/events/wars over the last couple of years...(not in order)
  • 9/11
  • bali bombing x 2
  • iraq war
  • london bombing
  • JI, terrorisms, Al-Qaeda..yar..u know those pple
  • tension btw china-jp, china-us, china-tw, us-nkorea...
  • the complicating middle east strifes.
  • tsunami
  • earthquakes in S. Asia
  • Mudslide in Guatamale
  • typhoon in jp
  • hurricane katrina in new orleans
  • hurricane rita in one of the coastal states in us.
  • bird flu - H1N5 virus
  • SARS
  • dengue
  • a few murder cases in spore where bodies are chopped up (gruesome)
  • melting ice-caps

well...what do u have to say?

hey guys...should i go-kart this sat?.........at JB..very tempting!

Monday, October 10, 2005

streaming thoughts

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there's just so many thoughts in me i wanna spit it all out.

i may look ay-ok. but someone just exposed an issue within me that i have been hiding for years.
GOD!! HEAL ME!! I felt like pourin out to Him.
God is sovereign. He sends help to his beloved. He nv forsake me. I'm thankful.
God is moulding me. Why do i want to hold on to 'it'?
I want to hold on to my Father's hand.
I want to hold on to its hand.
I want to hold on to both hands.
I am weak in this area. Only then will His strength be shown.

Do u know that Apostle Paul also has weakness that he wanted to remove but couldn't. 3times he pleaded with the Lord to take it away but his request was not granted. Instead, he used it to tap into God's all sufficient grace. 2Cor 12:9 says " My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness."

i enjoy conversing with people and analysing with em about r/s, ranging from family, to siblings, to bgr, to friends. ya, i take my time off to talk and make them see the picture, and most of the time, they leave with a wider perceptions of things. that gives me a sense of satisfaction.
.....yar..and only if i can get my work done at the same time...the satisfaction would 2x more.
also, i enjoy being encouraged. encouraged by those i'm speaking to.

helped my aunt at bethesthe cathedral last night. It was a prayer meeting. It was praying for the SilkStream vision, a back to jerusalem quest. About how nations west of china and east of israel will one day received Christ and shout to the daughter of Zions at israel....yadah yadah.
I came across this 'back to jerusalam' term when i was finishing the book on brother yun, the heavenly man. He also had such vision from God. Vision that one day the gospel will be preached till the end of the earth. and when that happens, J. Christ will come (yippee!!!)
and in the same morning, at my church,
Ps Jack..who is a director of missions at Phlippines, spoke to us. Telling us about the surprises from God. and how near we are at the end of time. how signs are surfacing. how intensified natural disasters have become, how surprised we would be when J. Christ comes the second time.. in a swift manner at a time when no one would know like a thief in the night when we cont to indulge in earthly pleasures and be prepared for his second coming..and not fill ourselves with oil.

bible reference: 2 Peter 3

10But the day of the Lord will come like a thief. The heavens will disappear with a roar; the elements will be destroyed by fire, and the earth and everything in it will be laid bare.

11Since everything will be destroyed in this way, what kind of people ought you to be? You ought to live holy and godly lives.

12as you look forward to the day of God and speed its coming.
That day will bring about the destruction of the heavens by fire, and the elements will melt in the heat.

13But in keeping with his promise we are looking forward to a new heaven and a new earth, the home of righteousness.

14So then, dear friends, since you are looking forward to this, make every effort to be found spotless, blameless and at peace with him.



can i conclude that when the middle east nations have believed in Christ, then HE IS REALLY A STONE THROW AWAY?

i saw a teenager spitting 4times outside MAcs at Tampines Mart. Super duper disgusted. one look and u noe they are underaged. then how on earth did they get the cigarettes. should i be a a)law enforcer b)social worker next time?? HEE
how tempting it was to dial 999 and get the cops to the precincts. get them booked. scare the daylight outta them. then we'll see how smug they can be. really. 'some pple just need to get ****** before they learn.' yep! i'm quoting evan.

spoke to et. thanks et.
appreciate your friendship. really. =)

Friday, October 07, 2005

sweet dreamz

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i had one of the sweetest and memorable dream last night.
how i wish things are like that.

Thursday, October 06, 2005

excited and emotional

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i'm excited for those folks going Cebu. yeah i am. dunno why.
it's my turn in dec, going thailand... looking fwd to it.
another words, i wun be here during xmas...yep, so i dun need to think whether to sing at raffles hotel on xmas day. but i'll miss the xmas service and the christmasy spirit in spore.
nonetheless i'll spend a special xmas this yr at thailand. No bright light, no loud music, no parties, no lousy shows on xmas...but i do hope to experience God's amazing presence, witness His wondrous work, refresh myself in His own glorious way!
for he has prepared and pave a righteous way for me...hallelujah.

it's tough being a mediator, a counsellor.
it's easier to lend a fren my shoulder, my ears and my hands when they are in need.

things of the past.
go away.
everything is made new.
why do they haunt me...
izzit an emotional blackmail? i want to get outta of it...i'm not holding onto it...but flashes and memories come rolling into me. drips and draps, splish and splash.
things of the very past.
i love. sweet scent of the very past makes me smile.
daydreaming. makes me look like a fool, daydreaming.
izzit an emotional blackmail?
dun whitewash it.

things of the past. makes me sad.
things of the very past. makes me sadder.
cos it is things of the very past.

things of the past has not found the key. it has paused to find the note. take note, do it quick. get on with the flow, the music and carry on.
things of the very past has unlocked the door and soared into the sky. yes and perhaps over the rainbow where blue birds fly...

bravery is things of the past. none is found in the things of the very past.
things of the very past...a vivid shadow...i wanna to hold on. but i can't. i really can't. Can't Har. Can't Har. Can't Har. Can't Har.
it cannot happen.
things of the past. i've got nothing to say.


thanks to me. can't bring past to pass. looming state
thanks to you.do bring things of the very past to a bright, happy future.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

webcast vs me

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izzit cos of students skipping lectures that's why there's webcast. or
izzit of webcast that is why students skip lectures?

i skip the same lecture twice in 2 weeks.
sm one remove the guilt!!!

Saturday, October 01, 2005

a few agenda

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I have a few agenda to address today
1. being indifference or being protective of oneself when one decides not to stand out for what is right.
2. Honoring our parents.
3. the book I am reading and a new friend of mine
4. a dream I had last night.

1. this is in relation to the ‘no smoking’ signs that would be placed at more areas like busstops, toilets, etc.
There was once I saw a teenager spit at the busstop, and after wiping his mouth with tissue paper, decided to litter instead of walking to a bin nearby.
What would u do?
Would u behave indifferently?
Would u do that so that u wun be labeled as a busybody?
Would u behave indifferently as we are ‘minding our own business’?
Would u behave indifferently as we are civilians of no authorities to stop him, to remind him nicely?
Hw about civic responsibility? Are we to care solely on our own business and allow only the relevant authorities to do their job?
But, how many policemen are there on patrol? (in the first place, let’s ASSUME they care and bother…)
Is this how educated citizen behave?
OR
Would u step fwd and tell the person off nicely? Tactfully? Morally, it’s correct, but to carry out… it’s not easy. How about we educate pple how to do that. Ya….public education… DUHHH!!!

Now, there will definitely be some handful of smokers who may not understand, simple ignore, dunno about the new legislation and continue to smoke in new prohibited areas. Will u be a by-stander, or …will u make a difference?

Dear readers, pls respond… I shared with pple close to me and they discourage me to go ahead and remind them. And I’m discouraged.

2. Some minor episodes occurred and I dun wanna pin-point. Just wanna quote the book of knowledge.
Ephesians 6

1Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. 2"Honor your father and mother" which is the first commandment with a promise 3"that it may go well with you and that you may enjoy long life on the earth."4Fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead, bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord.

Colossians 3

20Children, obey your parents in everything, for this pleases the Lord.

In the near future, I’ll be earning and I’ll give a proportion to my parents. I encourage future earners to do that. Ur parents would appreciate. I am also guilty of not respecting my parents at times. Yep, sorry.

3. Yep, the book. and a fren

It’s captivating. Every page and every chapter haven’t failed to show the power and grace and love and relevance of God in our lives… I am really inspired. I dunno how to put in words. He makes me feel ashamed. But I’m quite sure I’m not called to do what he does.

I spoke to a new friend. She’s my classmate. Thank God that He arranged this meeting and opportunity to chat and allow each other to find out how God has been playing a part in our lives. Encouraging. Yea

4. I had a dream.

Got invited to a friend’s wedding. In it, I prayed for an object that is required for the wedding but became faulty. I prayed and God answer the prayer. That object was repaired. Yep, that was the fragment that I can remember clearly. The next part is a lil vague: and that was I followed what Brother Yun did when God told him to speak up. I think I told my friends around me that God just did a miracle. and i asked them when, then, would they believe in my God. My Jesus…yep. how can u deny the very fact He is Almighty.

And fyi, brother yun was imprisoned at Nanyang Prison for spreading negative propaganda about the gov, the 3 self patriotic church,etc. Despite his frail physique, he stood up and exclaimed to his cell mates to repent and look to God, ask Him for forgiveness; to accept Christ as their Saviour.

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