dun bother to FILL IN THE BLANK
我知道你出于一片好心。。。 不要打扰我温书。
可是我好希望能__你呀！
想到要__了啦！
好蠢喔。。
多么渴望当我在一点的时候打电话给你，你会在___。。。像我昨天一样。。________。
多么盼望我醒来所接到的_____是______打来的 而不是______要吃午餐吗。
多么希望在吃午餐时_______。。。问我在哪里。因为______没人开门让你进。____。
多么期望当我走出电梯时，会看到______。。。给我_____惊喜。。____。。。
是我。。是我过于地__望__望__望__望。。。
为什么。。。你说你想_____??
但最后决定还是你的。。。我不要__。。。不想__。。免得我__，苛刻，__。。。
只不过。。。我还是没心情。。。但我不会让这烂心情掌控我。。。
因为我不要辜负你的一片好心。。。也因为。。我知道我再_____去也是_____
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I feel stressed now.
I feel stressed and am wondering if Jesus had felt stressed before.
Stress- a present-day ‘disease’
Did society in the past encounter stress? Did individual have stress in the past?
Were they just anxious and worried and not stressed? Did the word stress come by because of its scientific nature? Force/ Area= Pressure= Stress? N per sq meter?
Perhaps people in the olden days were playing around with desserts…and they felt like treating such sweet and tasty way the other way around when they flipped the spelling.
U know, words like R A C E C A R has E has it’s pivot and obviously this is totally outta point.
Good thing can wait. Good thing can wait when u know it is worth waiting… and it will still be there by the end of the wait.
‘How are you spiritually?’
U see, I feel that I am stressed when I am asked such question and when I do ask others. But really, the walk will Jesus is impt. He needs to be our centre and focus.
Will you journey and support me?
I will journey with u and support u... i try...
Lord, let me not be envious.
Lord, let me not to lean on my understanding.
Lord, let me be a good boy and do Your will.
And I know one thing You love me.
psalm 23
it is time like this when i start to get panicky and lousy.
then it is time like this when i experience God saying that He is my shepherd.
I picked up my daily bread and read today's devotion passage...thinking that 'it's psalm 23 AGAIN!!!'
but now when i'm in school, i deliberately relook at today's devotions.
I collected my individual paper on runaway youth. i got one of the lowest, if not the lowest.
I had collected my individual paper on a movie review on Patch Adams. i got one of the lowest, if not the lowest.
I have band practices between my revision schedule which of course, is both therapeutic and stressful (if u get what i mean).
and God is telling me thru today's devotion:
"Although they were Christians, they were as worried as unbelievers about the common things of life. As she lovingly listened to them, an unusual idea came to her for a game they could play. It went like this:
Instead of saying, “I’m worried,” stop and say, “The Lord is my Shepherd.” Then add, “So I’m worried to death!” The students laughed at the absurdity of the idea, but they all promised to play this new “peace-of-mind” game.
Later, Mary received a phone call from a young woman who had been paralyzed by worry over an exam she had been dreading to take. She said, “I must tell you how the game helped me trust God today. As I froze with worry, I remembered to say, ‘The Lord is my Shepherd . . . so I’m afraid I’ll fail!’ Suddenly I felt the strangest peace of mind. I laughed at myself, then I took the exam—and I passed!”
Saying “The Lord is my Shepherd, and I am worried to death” is more than a mind game to point out the absurdity of worry. God can use this contradiction to bring us to a fuller trust in Him"
I shall not worry.
grades should not take priority over the process of learning.
"The Lord is my Shepherd, and I am worried that i'll do poorly!"Psalm 42:5 declares, “Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise Him, my Savior and my God.” That must be why the psalmist said, “There they were, overwhelmed with dread, where there was nothing to dread” (Psalm 53:5).
In the midst of the changing circumstances of life, we have a choice. We can live in fear of all the uncertainties, or we can cling to the reality of God’s sustaining and intervening presence in our lives. When we find our strength in the fact that our Almighty God is on the throne and has everything under control, the defeating question marks are replaced with the confidence of His exclamation points, and that’s a welcome change!
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i opened the door... in the school library...at about 11am....
i opened the door...of a toilet in the library, in a daze, as i had stayed up the night b4 to study.
i opened the door and and after taking a step in, i realized i was half way into a female toilet.
i hope this would not repeat tmr morning.
good news
woohoo...thank God...i got the scholarship.
Praise God.
=)
tuition fees will be saved, allowances to buy books, immediate employment
woohoo!!
complains
gosh. i dunno why. i am feel grumpy now.
dun want to affect the mood of those around me.
trying to not bog myself by over-worrying.
just gotten back my paper on counseling and what shitty mark i got. 2 marks from the bottom.
bad feeling about how performance will be at the end of the day.
and revision this time round was more lax than last sem...
but u know, it's like i understand more than i think i can memorise...and with tight timeline and many appointments...(of which some are preferred over others)...i have to set time away from studies...
se shit...though playing is rather enjoyable..and dear, i think taking a lvl 3 mod to just enjoy playing can be attractive...
and youth work seemed to have loads to clear though sudha mentioned that the impt stuff we need is to get the front part internalised.
counseling ya counseling ya...so disappointing...
gender leh... am i too confident for it? so hard to study FOR EXAM.
goodness man...just scrape it...
then got meeting...practices...attachment after that..no time no time for the things i want to do...
complain complain... and stupid matric fair. spoiler.
i just need a to rest in you...in You
with time so tight, i so feel like doing things in faith faith faith... dun need to panick for interview tmr, study so blardy hard for exam...
check
this out with the lyrics
here...
.........and u just went off(line) =(
what i want now
made the president of young adults ministry in church - thank God and the support i have. I pray for strength and vision.contacted for social work training scholarship interview for me - thank God for this opportunity. do provide a way for me if i do get it cos traveling from Tampines to AMK, CHENGSAN, SENGKANG can be very challenging. I pray for providence and wisdom.singing in a band- thank God for using me in this manner. I pray that heartdrive glues well in God's sight and that His kingdom will expand and expand from this project.going for attachment after dreadful exam - thank God for opening up Tampines FSC. so near home. give me courage and positivity as i go forth and work.stop tuition becos of intensity of workload and time factor and hoping my 'employer' would take me in in end July after my attachment- believe that He will provide and bless me and lead me to a good PT job where i can have a good payout.on top of these,i pray for rest. and i thank God for everything, everyone.family,vic,evan,ed,ting,sharon,juan,hweelee,khungrace,diana,zj,jing2,andrewjj,twinx,and my dear chek
