..the beads and p*sses of dumbo-no-more

i suck (again) but
I'll learn
and be a better person after this and
better boyfriend to you

posted by WILLIAM @ 12:51 AM 0 comments

CNY 2009 and VDAY 2009

my mummy and daddy!

posted by WILLIAM @ 2:13 PM 0 comments

His love endures forever!

i wanna give praise to my King!
Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
becos His love endures forever.
He is good; He's above all things! His Love endures forever! I want to sing praise...

He is good to me not because I have done things for him neither because He sees that I haven't been sinning...
Even when I have sinned or still fall into temptations at times, He gave His son to die for me...and because of my sinless Jesus died, I can face today and tmr and the future!
He is on my side because I accepted Jesus into my life!

Romans 5:6-11 - the passage mentioned at the last BAG group resonated clearly within me.
It's the silence to think and ponder and know the significance of the passage and had enabled to overcome the challenges i had met for the last one week.

"You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. "

"Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God's wrath through him! For if, when we were God's enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! Not only is this so, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation."

last week i had dificulties getting my research participants... by Sunday, i had 6 pairs of siblings when i needed 3 to work with.

and i am excited to share with you the following!

On monday, my supervisor told me that i looked tired. and i admitted...i told her i was panicky and i had to distribute time and effort for my research and pdt. I began to feel panicky becos i haven't done up my literature review and she had also told me that my theoretical assumptions, concept maps and interview questions were 'everywhere!'... she told me that she knew such things would happen to me when i told her my class will have a pdt lined up this mid term break. Thank God she didn't go further because my tired mind would become very congested. congested with her suggestions and her nagging and the negative self talk would have surfaced eventually.

So i met chek for lunch, feeling rather down and tired...so i headed home to rest.
on the way home, i sent prayer requests out to my dear cell group members and classmates to pray for direction and wisdom to plan for my ism and also for peace.

I slept when i got home, as advised.
I woke up,wanting to revisit my ism...but i SUDDENLY FELL SICK

suddenly: within 15min
fell sick: sneeze x10times, nose leaking, then whole nose blocked, sore throat, feeling weak and i knew i couldnt stay up to do revise my work. HOW!

i sent out another prayer requests to my dear CG members and friends... so desperate le!
HOW CAN I NOT PRAY! must pray... that's the most powerful tool then i thought. (i really thought so leh... quite instinctly i thought i needed Christ's help)

so well, i prayed too... very simple prayer. sentence dun need to flow coherently, nicely...so talked and asked for mercy and good sleep.
(i guess i must have scare a few friends!)
and i woke up at 10plusam on Tues, and at about 12 noon, I have RECOVERED completely!

my dear came to visit me somemore! and i was very happy to see her!

i went to meet my research participants too!

i worked out my literature review, my conceptual maps... and slept at 2plus...leaving 2 items undone... i felt the Spirit telling me 'it's enough, go sleep.'

the next day, i boarded the train at simei at 855am. NO crowd! have seat for me. so i worked out my framework. YAY! done just before i reached clementi! reached school at 10am, ready to meet with my supervisor! but she has a meeting she can't leave!
so i worked out my interview questions! When i had just finished checking my interview questions, she's ready to meet me!

During that meeting, she told me that the work was much better!...and much better... hmm, see u rest and u could think! and the back of my mind was how AMAZING my God is. so with 'much better..., and i think you can start your interviews ...', i left her office, literally jumping with joy and excited to share this wonderful piece of testimony.
(These happen from Sun to Wed noon: 90hrs!... including sleep time, travelling time, slacking time, talking time, falling sick time!...woot!)

To all who despair, come to the Father.
He shall give you rest and without you knowing, u are soaring sky high like an eagle...so proud and so excited!

Psalm 136
1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good. His love endures forever.
2 Give thanks to the God of gods. His love endures forever.
3 Give thanks to the Lord of lords: His love endures forever.
4 to him who alone does great wonders, His love endures forever.
5 who by his understanding made the heavens, His love endures forever.
6 who spread out the earth upon the waters, His love endures forever.
7 who made the great lights— His love endures forever.
8 the sun to govern the day, His love endures forever.
9 the moon and stars to govern the night; His love endures forever.






come on! let's praise Him!
and come fri and sat...I shall perform for Him!
woohoo!

posted by WILLIAM @ 1:27 PM 1 comments

temperature is rising...

the temperature's rising.
it's less than 8 days to the performance.
are we there yet?

the temperature's rising.
there's a mountain of things to do.
at least, that's how i feel.
maybe there ARE that many things to do.
and once again, i dunno how to start.

it's true that the ISM topic has to be something close to my heart.
if not, doing it is a chore.
it is so tough to find a family of 4-mum, dad, 2 siblings whose age are between 15-18.
my ism is about finding out factors that change the quality of attachment between siblings and it implications.

the temperature's rising.
cos the last lap is here...

the temperature's rising...
global warming and what not.

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click on

http://thethesis2009.blogspot.com

dun hesitate! click on it!

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first and next...next...

i am beginning to doubt beckham's integrity. true that he is still a kutlat player. true that he can help ur FC get loads of cash and countless sponsorship. true that his ball bending ability has brought him from Manunited to Real Madrit to LA Galaxy now to AC Milan.
but not keeping to his deal with Galaxy and wanna move permanently to AC Milan is showing who he is.
his character is beginning to disgust me. afterall i've been 'hooked' to soccer cos of manunited and d.beckham since i was 14. darn. 11yrs.

next, i wonder how come You are Mine speaks so much to both my gf and bf (it's best fren!) and not me.

next next, i think my director for my play is amazing. michelle...jiayou! thanks for sharing with me ur testimony.

next next next, thank God that i managed to do what i needed to do to touch the audiences.

posted by WILLIAM @ 2:28 AM 0 comments

hybrid spoof of rihana's umbrella and 881

see if u can see the chicken and the man.

posted by WILLIAM @ 2:59 AM 0 comments

william and acting

i like to act. i think i really enjoy getting into roles and perform.
there is something in me- a performing streak- that spurs me to want to present to an audience, so as to tell a story.

no one in my family seems extraverted enough to want to share, to want to display, to show...
but i inherited from them a safe environment to dare to show such flair- strangely, not to them but to an audience.

i often remember when i was younger i would move with the beats from songs, that was when i was still a toddler. during primary school, i asked one of the teachers i/c of teacher's day celebration if i could go on stage and dance and i did...and well, my face was so thick i kept dancing and influenced a few more pp to join me on stage.
i was active in choir for about 10yrs. under the baton of mr nelson kwei, i sang songs that praise my God whom i didn't know, i travelled overseas and performed to audiences and competed under the 'watchful' eyes and 'sensitive' ears of judges.
there was tkd demonstration and i was thrilled with the ideas of showing stunts and kicking planks so as to draw members to the activity.

wow, i thought going on stage was fun, exciting, nervous...

came sec1 beijing immersion trip... i had my first taste of role playing.
a baddie, 一个使枪的枪匪。。。威胁客站的老板...an armed robber who threatened the innkeeper. then on, i had a kick in playing baddies, aka ah-beng. 很放。。可以大声。。应该大声。。来恐吓好人。。 (the streak of ah-bengness starts here)

for a while i aspired to be an (tv/stage) actor. yea, even for someone short, yet rather candid... like 辉哥, there was also 周初明。搞笑。。。 i told my MEP teacher and she remembered until these few years i told her that i will be a social worker and NOT an actor.

i didn't get hold of any roles in school choir performances. maybe i shouldn't. that kept me in check. Nope. i wasn't good enough for nelson to hand me a role in les mis and horrotorio.

came BMT and i was the company mascot. a short man in a huge jack-daniel's whiskey bottle made outta cardboard. well... till date, i am still amused i wore that thing and paraded during games day at tekong which somehow triggered a slight brawl between my sect comm and another spec from T coy.

in NS, through my recruits' lives, i saw the impoverished side of what is commonly and often mistakened as a good society, singapore. I saw how hard lives were when my trainees had to sell hardpack, joined gang becos they dun find nothing from dysfunctional homes; living conditions were minimal, parents outta job, gf about to give birth while he is in camp... nah, not all singaporeans grew up like me. (to prepare my heart to do social work)

God was gracious; He grant me an opportunity to study in NUS. most importantly, that's where i (re-)met chek. there, i also met friends who are like-minded.

During my uni days, i went thailand for mission trip (twice) and i role-played characters from the bible.(who arh? i cannot rmb)

i also was involved in the clown musical, an evangelistic musical. that musical was the first major performance after a 3-4 yrs hiatus. thank God He knew i could commit the role of a blind man whom Jesus healed. "I can see! I can see!!" not only did the blind man was healed physically, his heart and mind saw the Light. that was a revelation; something i didn't know until i acted that role.
never had i imagined to get a role in a MUSICAL, what more i sang and leapt, and act. hallelujah!
in between, i sang with heartdrive and there i have it, an album called First Love.
With a heart of thankfulness, You have used my talents to speak to me and assure me;teach me and humbled me.
during easter last yr, i was thrilled acting as the Enemy in the mime at church. i was glad that the impact was there. got kick!

In my course-social work, students role-play as clients and social workers. I enjoyed my classes that has such element. experiential learning.

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